As I opened my Bible this morning, I realized it's been a while since a blog was stirring in my heart. As I began reading, today in the One Year Bible is about the farmer and seed that is planted:
Matthew 13:
Parable of the Farmer Scattering Seed
“Listen! A farmer went out to plant some seeds. 4 As he scattered them across his field, some seeds fell on a footpath, and the birds came and ate them. 5 Other seeds fell on shallow soil with underlying rock. The seeds sprouted quickly because the soil was shallow. 6 But the plants soon wilted under the hot sun, and since they did’t have deep roots, they died. 7 Other seeds fell among thorns that grew up and choked out the tender plants. 8 Still other seeds fell on fertile soil, and they produced a crop that was thirty, sixty, and even a hundred times as much as had been planted! 9 Anyone with ears to hear should listen and understand.”
10 His disciples came and asked him, “Why do you use parables when you talk to the people?”
11 He replied, “You are permitted to understand the secrets[a] of the Kingdom of Heaven, but others are not. 12 To those who listen to my teaching, more understanding will be given, and they will have an abundance of knowledge. But for those who are not listening, even what little understanding they have will be taken away from them. 13 That is why I use these parables,
For they look, but they don’t really see.
They hear, but they don’t really listen or understand.
14 This fulfills the prophecy of Isaiah that says,
‘When you hear what I say,
you will not understand.
When you see what I do,
you will not comprehend.
15 For the hearts of these people are hardened,
and their ears cannot hear,
and they have closed their eyes—
so their eyes cannot see,
and their ears cannot hear,
and their hearts cannot understand,
and they cannot turn to me
and let me heal them.’[b]
16 “But blessed are your eyes, because they see; and your ears, because they hear. 17 I tell you the truth, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, but they didn’t see it. And they longed to hear what you hear, but they didn’t hear it.
18 “Now listen to the explanation of the parable about the farmer planting seeds: 19 The seed that fell on the footpath represents those who hear the message about the Kingdom and don’t understand it. Then the evil one comes and snatches away the seed that was planted in their hearts. 20 The seed on the rocky soil represents those who hear the message and immediately receive it with joy. 21 But since they don’t have deep roots, they don’t last long. They fall away as soon as they have problems or are persecuted for believing God’s word. 22 The seed that fell among the thorns represents those who hear God’s word, but all too quickly the message is crowded out by the worries of this life and the lure of wealth, so no fruit is produced. 23 The seed that fell on good soil represents those who truly hear and understand God’s word and produce a harvest of thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times as much as had been planted!”
Tears began to well up in me as I thought about my own 'life cycle' of my personal testimony of the Word of God (the seed) being planted in my heart in 2005 and how that seed (the Word of God) has gown since then. Again, it was the One Year Bible that has disciplined me to read the Word daily and allow 'the seed to grow.' It was then this blog started coming together and my thoughts went to my kitty, Hope Cherish~who we simply call~Kitty.
It seems there is always a movie I've been watching that somehow touches me and becomes part of my blogs and the movie I've been watching lately is, "Facing the Giants." It's about a football coach whose marriage, home and job as a coach are stuck in a rut. He and his wife want to start their family and he finds he can't have babies, his football team can't win a game and the parents of the team try to get him fired. Everything in his home stops working as well as the car he drives is a clunker. He's claims he has a relationship with God as he reached out to him in prayer and doesn't seem to think He(God)is working. One day, he realizes what's missing in his life which is the Word of God. He begans what he calls his new team game plan of which his wife says she thinks it pertains to all parts of life. He starts coaching his team using the Word of God, leading his home with the Word of God and things began to change. I'm not gonna tell you the ending, but if you read the Word of God it's like 'this seed' the Word, becomes real. God's promises are true if you choose to take the time to read, your confidence begins to 'Believe' what the Word says!
As I look at my own 'life cycle', I can remember reading the word and then something would happen in my life where I reacted, got worried and tried to take care of the situation myself. (that would be 'the seed' that heard a message and it didn't have deep roots to grow.)Today, alot of my inner circle still think I'm alittle 'nuts' because I find myself quoting what the Word says for 'today' in the One Year Bible when a situation arises. You see they're 'tattling' on themselves because their 'seed' hasn't been allowed to grow.
A couple months ago, I lost around 20 pds and wasn't sure if their was something going on. Yes, fear tried to set in, however right at that time the Word was about the authority we each have in Jesus if we are Christians. Jesus died for us, by his stripes, We Are Healed! I began saying this to myself. Not he will heal me or he's gonna heal me, he HAS healed me. To be obedient, I scheduled a Dr appt to put everyone at ease. This was tough becausee how do you go to a MD and tell them your symptoms (which for me were pancreas related) and them not put you thru many tests that could essentially break you financially. So- I prayed and found a MD who is a Believer, actually invited me to her church. I smiled and knew God was in this. All of my tests came back normal. That 'seed' was growing in me with the knowledge of what it means to really 'trust God for All.' Just yesterday, I had some 'life' going on and it's become really sweet as the enemy tries to do 'it's' thing, my thoughts would go to the Word and I would have peace. I continued to be reminded, those how trust in God shall not be disappointed and ALL things work together for His glory-not mine.
When I think back to today's reading, my heart aches for so many and really for our Nation. I know so many people who have disfunction in their home and are unhappy with their job. I pray the 'seed' to be planted in their hearts where they know God is in control, he has them and thier family exactly where he wants them and they would seek him thru his Word. I pray they would seek him not only in prayer like the guy in the movie, but that they would begin living their 'life cycle' by reading the Word, receiving the Word and allowing it to become their game plan. When it comes to our Nation, I can't believe we have allowed God to be taken out of schools, pretty much everywhere. And just today, I heard Rick Perry has dropped out of the Presidential race for the most part due to ugly people pointing out his weakness instead of his strengths when in reality his 'Life cycle'seems to have been modeled by the Word of God. At this point, I'm praying for the 'one' to step out where it is wrong to speak your Faith to SPEAK IT and whose platform (game plan)is based on the Word Of God. Yes-I know how 'off' this sounds. Again,I'm the girl who many still think is 'nuts.'
In closing, as this blog began stirring in my heart, I was sitting on my bed with my Bible on my lap and realized something was missing. You see, the Bible became my comfort as I was blessed to do a job from home from 2006 until last summer where I would spend 2-6 hours a day reading it. In Jan of 2008 after meeting my husband who is a big cat lover, I found out his cat was about to have a liter of kitty's. I wanted a pet but knew I didn't want the responsibility of one. I was a dog lover. The idea soon came that a kitty was much easier. The liter was born, and Hope Cherrish (Kitty) came into my life. We soon became a team-when I was reading my Bible, she was right next to me and when I wasn't reading, she was laying on top of it opened to that day in the One Year Bible. This past year, I knew the season of me working from home was ending. I felt it was time to get out and start what I consider my ministry of sharing what God had been doing in me with his Word and planting 'the seed' (One Year Bible) in the lives of any who would receive it. (after my car was stolen in 2010, it was found and I used part of the proceeds to buy Bibles) I went from being gone every now and then to working 50+ hours a week. Poor Kitty got depressed and wouldn't eat. One day she wanted to be outside. I let her out thinking she would be back soon. She like being outside and always came back. Well, that was August and I haven't seen her. Since then, I kept thinking she would show up. The reality that she might be gone didn't set in until today. I am off which is why I was able to spend some extra time with God and His Word this morning. Again as this blog, The "Life cycle' began stirring in my heart, it was then that I realized what was missing and that was Kitty and the reality she's probably not coming back.
My calling in life is Chaplain. I love the idea of hearing about people's 'Life cycle.' I especially love hearing what God is doing in their hearts. I love attending a Funeral and to hear about the individuals who has passed. Many call me a funeral crasher. To celebrate the 'Life cycle' of the person and share a special memory is everything to me. I can't wait for the day when I get to meet with a Family during their really tough time and get to share 'The Lifesycle' of the loved one they've lost in hopes they know how much I care for them and their loved one and yes I would give them a copy of the One Year Bible in hopes they seek comfort from God in His Word.
For the rest of my day off, I will probably be thinking about Kitty's 'Life cycle.' She was so sweet, taught my daughter's to love kitty's and to celebrate the Joy she brought to me. I will also continue to pray for the many people I know who are hurting and for our Nation who desperately needs to be brought back to One Nation Under God...as you know...Trusting God for All.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
'Sweet Redemption'
It’s been a while since my last blog post as I continue to seek God for what’s next, I recently had some wonderful clarity I had been praying for.
In 2006, after I had been reading the One Year Bible steadily for one year. I would wake up every night at 3:00 with what seemed chapter titles to a book. The odd part is the chapters weren’t written Funny. Today, as I smile and tears well up in my eyes, that would be a correct statement as most of the ‘story’ of each chapter was just being written (lived) with this new transformation of the way I used to live-‘the old me-sin nature’ verses this new ‘reborn me-Spirit Driven.’
The whole story is about ‘sweet redemption’ and knowing who I am in Christ, He is my provider, He will never leave me or forsake me, and most important there is NOTHING I can do in my own strength-it is all His. God loves me! His Word is the ‘truth and light’ I choose to live by.
In my last blog, I mentioned how God had begun healing so many areas of my life and many in my inner circle. He began shedding the ‘light’ I had been praying for what seemed ‘forever.’ If you’ve read my previous entries, you know the ‘storm’ we went thru and again, I pray you understand, I didn’t and couldn’t have gone thru this without this sweet God of ours and His Word holding my hand every step of the way with the daily Bible reading. (One Year Bible)
As I mentioned in the past, I don’t believe in coincidences. I do believe they are God’s way of being anonymous. ‘ One’ of the praise reports of the amazing healing God has done is my husband and I joined the church (Cross Timbers/Keller, Texas) we had been visiting that I mentioned in the past that really made us feel like we ‘had come home’ and are really part of a family. The Pastor, (Toby Slough) has incredible ‘anointing’ with his timing and delivery. The last song during the worship service was yes, you might guess, Blessed Assurance and the message was straight from Deuteronomy 8 which if you’re reading this blog, you see the name of the ministry God gave me and yup my complete testimony is based on this scripture. As he was talking, tears were running down my cheeks as I began to realize God was speaking to me.
These past couple months, I really sensed God was about to get me busy and yes that would be an understatement. I began working as a Chaplain in the ‘workplace’ as well as I have been doing some on-site Leasing with an amazing company where God is so present-unbelievable! Well-as it turns out, both humbled and sad, I ended up having to resign from the position of Chaplain as I realized I didn’t fit their model. I honestly felt the Lord was using me more with the on-site leasing. This was especially tough because you know how much the calling of Chaplain means to me. However, when I started liking the ‘title’ of Chaplain more than what this particular company did, I knew pride was setting in and I needed to let it go.
I’m not going to go into detail about how much things have changed in the past 4 months, but I will say with complete confidence GOD IS GOOD! He is a God of Redemption if you will choose to make Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior, read the word, seek God, and begin the most incredible journey of your life where peace and joy become your life no matter what is going on!
In 2006, after I had been reading the One Year Bible steadily for one year. I would wake up every night at 3:00 with what seemed chapter titles to a book. The odd part is the chapters weren’t written Funny. Today, as I smile and tears well up in my eyes, that would be a correct statement as most of the ‘story’ of each chapter was just being written (lived) with this new transformation of the way I used to live-‘the old me-sin nature’ verses this new ‘reborn me-Spirit Driven.’
The whole story is about ‘sweet redemption’ and knowing who I am in Christ, He is my provider, He will never leave me or forsake me, and most important there is NOTHING I can do in my own strength-it is all His. God loves me! His Word is the ‘truth and light’ I choose to live by.
In my last blog, I mentioned how God had begun healing so many areas of my life and many in my inner circle. He began shedding the ‘light’ I had been praying for what seemed ‘forever.’ If you’ve read my previous entries, you know the ‘storm’ we went thru and again, I pray you understand, I didn’t and couldn’t have gone thru this without this sweet God of ours and His Word holding my hand every step of the way with the daily Bible reading. (One Year Bible)
As I mentioned in the past, I don’t believe in coincidences. I do believe they are God’s way of being anonymous. ‘ One’ of the praise reports of the amazing healing God has done is my husband and I joined the church (Cross Timbers/Keller, Texas) we had been visiting that I mentioned in the past that really made us feel like we ‘had come home’ and are really part of a family. The Pastor, (Toby Slough) has incredible ‘anointing’ with his timing and delivery. The last song during the worship service was yes, you might guess, Blessed Assurance and the message was straight from Deuteronomy 8 which if you’re reading this blog, you see the name of the ministry God gave me and yup my complete testimony is based on this scripture. As he was talking, tears were running down my cheeks as I began to realize God was speaking to me.
These past couple months, I really sensed God was about to get me busy and yes that would be an understatement. I began working as a Chaplain in the ‘workplace’ as well as I have been doing some on-site Leasing with an amazing company where God is so present-unbelievable! Well-as it turns out, both humbled and sad, I ended up having to resign from the position of Chaplain as I realized I didn’t fit their model. I honestly felt the Lord was using me more with the on-site leasing. This was especially tough because you know how much the calling of Chaplain means to me. However, when I started liking the ‘title’ of Chaplain more than what this particular company did, I knew pride was setting in and I needed to let it go.
I’m not going to go into detail about how much things have changed in the past 4 months, but I will say with complete confidence GOD IS GOOD! He is a God of Redemption if you will choose to make Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior, read the word, seek God, and begin the most incredible journey of your life where peace and joy become your life no matter what is going on!
Friday, February 4, 2011
In 'Awe' of God's Faithfulness
I'm pretty sure this is going to be Part 1 of a continued blog.
Today in Texas, it's snowing. We've actually had ice since Tuesday. For me, as I prepared for the week on Sunday, not knowing exactly what God had planned, I knew I didn't have a whole lot going on. Yes-we serve a Faithful God. Schools have been closed since Tuesday and many businesses and churches have done the same. (kind of sad for the Super Bowl planners)
Just sitting here, looking out the window, watching the fluffy snow come down is a Blessing. Sitting here, knowing today more than ever, my circumstances don't determine my peace and joy. Looking forward to playing in it later with my Husband and kids!)
It's been a really sweet week of reflection on where I was, what I've prayed for and how God is an amazing God and is Faithful.
Recently, I heard a good phrase that is Biblical: 'Those who trust in God, shall not be disappointed!'
Yes! That was actually 2 weeks ago at my Ladies group and I continue to say and know the truth behind the words.
As I write this blog, I'm reminded this is a blog about what God is doing in Me. I was told in a prophetic word in 2009, 'MY' life is an 'open book'. So-in a effort to keep this about 'God and me', I will try not to include too many other's as they have all not said I should make their life part of this 'open book.'
Having just written this, there are a couple things I want to share to give you hope, maybe even direction if some of what you're reading touches you.
This past month, many prayers have begun to be answered. One, is knowing God's plan and purpose for my life and seeing God's plan and purpose begin to 'grow' in the lives of my daughter's. It is my prayer, if you have children or you're an adult 'still searching' this might touch You.
As you've read, I divorced in 2005. As you know and might have experienced in your own life, divorce 'can be' the single thing that makes or breaks a person's life. For me, this might not have happened had I been reading/receiving/living the Word as I do today. Also, I might have been more 'in tune' with God's purpose and plan in my life earlier had I been reading/receiving/living God's word as I do believe the job of being a Chaplain was very clear when I was a Senior in High School.
My passion seems to be growing as God's promises begin showing here at home. You see, the 'seed' that was planted in me with God's word (now more than 5 years ago with the daily reading in the One Year Bible) has been 'growing!'
It's almost as if, when I divorced, I was able to see my daughter's in a new way. As you've read, I was the one who moved. With this came a surrender like no other, a surrender to giving them back to God. As I gave them back to God, he began showing me who He created them to be for His glory. Again, keeping the blog about me, it would be very un-natural for me not to share how God has Blessed me with what He is doing in their lives and how He plans to use them.
Early on, the oldest began showing her academic and leadership skills. It was natural to encourage her in this direction. When she was in 2nd grade, I had great fun helping her study as she would type her spelling words 3 times each on the computer not only learning to spell but also getting comfortable using the computer. In High School, she tried her first beauty pageant and won! We laughed for days as we were anything but the normal beauty pageant people. God allowed her to win as she given a small college scholarship which became important when she headed off to school. She is a Senior in college where she is VP of the Student Government and President of so many groups I can't even remember. This week, she was accepted to Law School. She has an idea of what area she would like to practice. As you can guess, I continue to pray for God to continue directing her steps as they are WAY bigger than I could have ever imagined. I will say, it is my prayer the day she is Blessed to be a Mom, it doesn't take her the same 22 years to embrace, as it did me. She walks around with a very humbled attitude saying, "Jesus loves Me!"
The middle daughter is left handed. My family was so typical-yes-they would place the fork on the right side of the plate at dinner hoping they could change this. At the age of 4, she began playing soccer. Her dad is a natural athlete and this gift passed to her. To keep this about me, all I will say is, sometimes dad's put a little pressure on their athletic kids when they themselves can't do what they're telling their kids to do on the field. As divorce happened, she lost her 'love' of playing. For me, again as I stepped out, I began encouraging her in a new way. Really praying for God to direct her steps (no pun intended). Her, being Left handed has been such a gift. She is strong both mentally and physically on both sides. Last year she started playing for a new Select soccer team. Her new Coach has been such a Blessing. During a tournament in May, the new coach had asked a coach from a Big 12 College to stop by and see her. By the end of the month, we were invited to visit and on Father's day (June), she made her verbal commitment. This week, I am happy to say she was one of many to participate in the National Letter of Intent Signing Day where she will play for one of the Big 12 Colleges. My prayer for her is God would continue 'directing her steps' on the soccer field. She contiues to say, "No matter what, it always works out for me."
There are 6 kids in this now Blended Family, so guess what? As they allow me, I will share what God is doing in their lives as He is such a Faithful God.
For me, the calling of Chaplain seemed so vague however today, seems so clear. The idea of being there for a kid or an adult who is experiencing pain and is acting out in anger and frustration means so much to me. As I read today in the One Year Bible about Moses and how God has taken him out of Egypt, I am humbled. I see this in my life and I see this in our country with Egypt as the crisis in Cairo continues.
The journey to understanding our purpose and plan can be extremely frustrating. However, with God and His WORD, again, I promise, knowing today more than ever He is a Faithful God!
....as You know...Trusting God for ALL!
Today in Texas, it's snowing. We've actually had ice since Tuesday. For me, as I prepared for the week on Sunday, not knowing exactly what God had planned, I knew I didn't have a whole lot going on. Yes-we serve a Faithful God. Schools have been closed since Tuesday and many businesses and churches have done the same. (kind of sad for the Super Bowl planners)
Just sitting here, looking out the window, watching the fluffy snow come down is a Blessing. Sitting here, knowing today more than ever, my circumstances don't determine my peace and joy. Looking forward to playing in it later with my Husband and kids!)
It's been a really sweet week of reflection on where I was, what I've prayed for and how God is an amazing God and is Faithful.
Recently, I heard a good phrase that is Biblical: 'Those who trust in God, shall not be disappointed!'
Yes! That was actually 2 weeks ago at my Ladies group and I continue to say and know the truth behind the words.
As I write this blog, I'm reminded this is a blog about what God is doing in Me. I was told in a prophetic word in 2009, 'MY' life is an 'open book'. So-in a effort to keep this about 'God and me', I will try not to include too many other's as they have all not said I should make their life part of this 'open book.'
Having just written this, there are a couple things I want to share to give you hope, maybe even direction if some of what you're reading touches you.
This past month, many prayers have begun to be answered. One, is knowing God's plan and purpose for my life and seeing God's plan and purpose begin to 'grow' in the lives of my daughter's. It is my prayer, if you have children or you're an adult 'still searching' this might touch You.
As you've read, I divorced in 2005. As you know and might have experienced in your own life, divorce 'can be' the single thing that makes or breaks a person's life. For me, this might not have happened had I been reading/receiving/living the Word as I do today. Also, I might have been more 'in tune' with God's purpose and plan in my life earlier had I been reading/receiving/living God's word as I do believe the job of being a Chaplain was very clear when I was a Senior in High School.
My passion seems to be growing as God's promises begin showing here at home. You see, the 'seed' that was planted in me with God's word (now more than 5 years ago with the daily reading in the One Year Bible) has been 'growing!'
It's almost as if, when I divorced, I was able to see my daughter's in a new way. As you've read, I was the one who moved. With this came a surrender like no other, a surrender to giving them back to God. As I gave them back to God, he began showing me who He created them to be for His glory. Again, keeping the blog about me, it would be very un-natural for me not to share how God has Blessed me with what He is doing in their lives and how He plans to use them.
Early on, the oldest began showing her academic and leadership skills. It was natural to encourage her in this direction. When she was in 2nd grade, I had great fun helping her study as she would type her spelling words 3 times each on the computer not only learning to spell but also getting comfortable using the computer. In High School, she tried her first beauty pageant and won! We laughed for days as we were anything but the normal beauty pageant people. God allowed her to win as she given a small college scholarship which became important when she headed off to school. She is a Senior in college where she is VP of the Student Government and President of so many groups I can't even remember. This week, she was accepted to Law School. She has an idea of what area she would like to practice. As you can guess, I continue to pray for God to continue directing her steps as they are WAY bigger than I could have ever imagined. I will say, it is my prayer the day she is Blessed to be a Mom, it doesn't take her the same 22 years to embrace, as it did me. She walks around with a very humbled attitude saying, "Jesus loves Me!"
The middle daughter is left handed. My family was so typical-yes-they would place the fork on the right side of the plate at dinner hoping they could change this. At the age of 4, she began playing soccer. Her dad is a natural athlete and this gift passed to her. To keep this about me, all I will say is, sometimes dad's put a little pressure on their athletic kids when they themselves can't do what they're telling their kids to do on the field. As divorce happened, she lost her 'love' of playing. For me, again as I stepped out, I began encouraging her in a new way. Really praying for God to direct her steps (no pun intended). Her, being Left handed has been such a gift. She is strong both mentally and physically on both sides. Last year she started playing for a new Select soccer team. Her new Coach has been such a Blessing. During a tournament in May, the new coach had asked a coach from a Big 12 College to stop by and see her. By the end of the month, we were invited to visit and on Father's day (June), she made her verbal commitment. This week, I am happy to say she was one of many to participate in the National Letter of Intent Signing Day where she will play for one of the Big 12 Colleges. My prayer for her is God would continue 'directing her steps' on the soccer field. She contiues to say, "No matter what, it always works out for me."
There are 6 kids in this now Blended Family, so guess what? As they allow me, I will share what God is doing in their lives as He is such a Faithful God.
For me, the calling of Chaplain seemed so vague however today, seems so clear. The idea of being there for a kid or an adult who is experiencing pain and is acting out in anger and frustration means so much to me. As I read today in the One Year Bible about Moses and how God has taken him out of Egypt, I am humbled. I see this in my life and I see this in our country with Egypt as the crisis in Cairo continues.
The journey to understanding our purpose and plan can be extremely frustrating. However, with God and His WORD, again, I promise, knowing today more than ever He is a Faithful God!
....as You know...Trusting God for ALL!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
2011-'Redeemed and Set Free'
2010 was a year of many tests. I've heard many say 10 means tests which turn into your 'Testimony!' Yes I would have to agree. I've also heard 10+1 means new. And yes-I am looking forward to many 'new' doors opening this year.
It was this time last year I watched the movie "Julia and Julia" that led me to begin blogging honestly not knowing why and really not sure anyone is really following. Odd enough, as I read thru the year, I see a person who has been tested in many ways and has remained Faithful knowing 'with God All things are possible.'
As I was reflecting on the year, yes there was much happening and along the way a couple amazing things I'm not sure I've shared.
From there, I was led to re-read my journals I've kept since 2005 when God got hold of me. Much focus as been on my Daughters, Family Real Estate Business, my divorce, my 'calling in life' to be a Chaplain-how, when and where, and finally my Re-Marriage. Pretty much, if it happened it got written about. wow.
The common thread with all of the things I journal about is the amazing journey I've been on and the healing that has been occurring and the freedom from many years of chains being let go.
I knew God was completely in control, what I didn't realize is how hard it would be for me, being the perfectionist, to completely 'let go' and be 'set free.'
After my car was stolen in August, it was found and I was led to sell it. I used the proceeds to do something I've never done which was to embrace the best job I've had for now 22 years and that is 'being a Mom.' I continued to maintain my Real Estate activities on a much smaller level and allowed my self to enjoy the Holidays with the girls as I've never done before. No financial burdens, work burdens just enjoy. (yes many thought I was nuts, but today I will tell you it was the BEST thing I've ever done.)
I was able to borrow a car and attend a week long Chaplain training seminar which was a result of me getting to meet the Chaplains at the Juvenile Court when I attended the hearing for the 2 kids charged for stealing my car. It was like I would walk out of the training every day extremely tearful as I was understanding so much of myself and the purpose and passion God had created in me. So many years of me feeling like I just didn't fit it really began making sense. Almost like taking your foot and putting it in a shoe and it fitting oh so perfect.
I also bought 4 boxes of the One Year Bible in hopes to begin sort of a 'Discipleship Training Program.' (many know it's my prayer to share my story of hope completely with the help of this amazing journey of reading and receiving the Word with this Daily program and for it to eventually be used as the curriculem esp. in Texas where a Law was passed that Bible Literacy is to be taught!)
Then in November a prophetic message came that said, "You are ready to do what God has called you to do, you are SET FREE!" (Yes-I was anticipating this as the One Year Bible reading was in the book of Ezekiel.)
It's still very early in the year and my blog of Trusting God for All has honestly began to be very real in every aspect of my life. I find myself relying on him for just about everything and a couple times when I forget-like when technology tries to fail-I'm quick to say, "yup-this one is your's too God!"
I won't even try to see or say what God has in store for me. Today in the One Year Bible in the book of Matthew it says, "You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But, the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it."
What I will say, is I'm continuing on the 'narrow' path ready to enter God's Kingdom and will close with the following prayer and yes as you know....Trusting God for All!
Our Father in heaven,
may your name be kept holy.
May your Kingdom come soon.
May your will be done on earth,
as it is in heaven.
Give us today the food we need,
and forgive us our sins,
as we have forgiven those who
sin against us.
And don't let us yield to temptation,
but rescue us from the evil one.
It was this time last year I watched the movie "Julia and Julia" that led me to begin blogging honestly not knowing why and really not sure anyone is really following. Odd enough, as I read thru the year, I see a person who has been tested in many ways and has remained Faithful knowing 'with God All things are possible.'
As I was reflecting on the year, yes there was much happening and along the way a couple amazing things I'm not sure I've shared.
From there, I was led to re-read my journals I've kept since 2005 when God got hold of me. Much focus as been on my Daughters, Family Real Estate Business, my divorce, my 'calling in life' to be a Chaplain-how, when and where, and finally my Re-Marriage. Pretty much, if it happened it got written about. wow.
The common thread with all of the things I journal about is the amazing journey I've been on and the healing that has been occurring and the freedom from many years of chains being let go.
I knew God was completely in control, what I didn't realize is how hard it would be for me, being the perfectionist, to completely 'let go' and be 'set free.'
After my car was stolen in August, it was found and I was led to sell it. I used the proceeds to do something I've never done which was to embrace the best job I've had for now 22 years and that is 'being a Mom.' I continued to maintain my Real Estate activities on a much smaller level and allowed my self to enjoy the Holidays with the girls as I've never done before. No financial burdens, work burdens just enjoy. (yes many thought I was nuts, but today I will tell you it was the BEST thing I've ever done.)
I was able to borrow a car and attend a week long Chaplain training seminar which was a result of me getting to meet the Chaplains at the Juvenile Court when I attended the hearing for the 2 kids charged for stealing my car. It was like I would walk out of the training every day extremely tearful as I was understanding so much of myself and the purpose and passion God had created in me. So many years of me feeling like I just didn't fit it really began making sense. Almost like taking your foot and putting it in a shoe and it fitting oh so perfect.
I also bought 4 boxes of the One Year Bible in hopes to begin sort of a 'Discipleship Training Program.' (many know it's my prayer to share my story of hope completely with the help of this amazing journey of reading and receiving the Word with this Daily program and for it to eventually be used as the curriculem esp. in Texas where a Law was passed that Bible Literacy is to be taught!)
Then in November a prophetic message came that said, "You are ready to do what God has called you to do, you are SET FREE!" (Yes-I was anticipating this as the One Year Bible reading was in the book of Ezekiel.)
It's still very early in the year and my blog of Trusting God for All has honestly began to be very real in every aspect of my life. I find myself relying on him for just about everything and a couple times when I forget-like when technology tries to fail-I'm quick to say, "yup-this one is your's too God!"
I won't even try to see or say what God has in store for me. Today in the One Year Bible in the book of Matthew it says, "You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But, the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it."
What I will say, is I'm continuing on the 'narrow' path ready to enter God's Kingdom and will close with the following prayer and yes as you know....Trusting God for All!
Our Father in heaven,
may your name be kept holy.
May your Kingdom come soon.
May your will be done on earth,
as it is in heaven.
Give us today the food we need,
and forgive us our sins,
as we have forgiven those who
sin against us.
And don't let us yield to temptation,
but rescue us from the evil one.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
What if....?
It's been a while since my last blog as I have been experiencing many 'What if's' in my own personal journey:
What if you moved to a new place and your spouse decided to stay at the old place?
What if you checked your voice mail only to find your Dad had a heart attack-the one they call 'the Widow maker?'
What if you woke up one day and walked outside to find your car had been stolen?
What if that same week your nephew had died of substance related stuff?
What if you realized someone very close to you suffered an addiction and it was you who offered the glass of wine that 're-triggered' the addiction?
What if you woke up to the call that your step-daughter had a life threatening head injury that almost took her life?
What if the new place you moved allowed you to 'take back your cross' and know Jesus as Lord and God is your ultimate provider and He is ALL you need?
What if the heart attack your Dad suffered allowed him to recognize the Blessing of Life and know he got 'a second chance at Life!'
What if the car that was stolen was the event that allowed you to achieve the title of 'Chaplain' when the world said it couldn't be done?
What if the death of your nephew began to help many trying different substances to recognize the danger and choose life?
What if the addiction you found out that someone very close to you suffered allowed you to practice and really offer true unconditional Love?
What if your step daughter suffered a life threatening head injury and was about to walk out of the Hospital completely healed?
This my friends has been my journey since May of this year. As it is written in John 10:10-The enemy comes to steal kill and destroy, but I have come that you would have Life in Abundance!
I share this with you today hoping~praying you know the only way I've been able to make it thru this very difficult season is with the word of God by reading the One Year Bible. If you are reading this, I know some of you are not in favor of a daily reading program like a One Year Bible. I just finished watching a TV program with my Pastor Robert Morris and James Robison of Life Today. It was about 'Being Set Free' and the only way to do this is with God's word. I know this as it was 2005 I began my journey of being 'Set Free' with God's Word using the One Year Bible. It was and is somewhat of a discipleship program of which I now believe is the Mission of the Vision God gave me in 2007.
Again, if you are reading this it is quite possibly by accident or maybe I linked this to you via 'twitter' as I am praying with much passion that together we can make a difference in our homes, cities, states and the world with helping more people get 'Set Free' by reading God's word with the One Year Bible!
And yes....I do agree, Free people help people get set free....as you know Trusting God for All!
What if you moved to a new place and your spouse decided to stay at the old place?
What if you checked your voice mail only to find your Dad had a heart attack-the one they call 'the Widow maker?'
What if you woke up one day and walked outside to find your car had been stolen?
What if that same week your nephew had died of substance related stuff?
What if you realized someone very close to you suffered an addiction and it was you who offered the glass of wine that 're-triggered' the addiction?
What if you woke up to the call that your step-daughter had a life threatening head injury that almost took her life?
What if the new place you moved allowed you to 'take back your cross' and know Jesus as Lord and God is your ultimate provider and He is ALL you need?
What if the heart attack your Dad suffered allowed him to recognize the Blessing of Life and know he got 'a second chance at Life!'
What if the car that was stolen was the event that allowed you to achieve the title of 'Chaplain' when the world said it couldn't be done?
What if the death of your nephew began to help many trying different substances to recognize the danger and choose life?
What if the addiction you found out that someone very close to you suffered allowed you to practice and really offer true unconditional Love?
What if your step daughter suffered a life threatening head injury and was about to walk out of the Hospital completely healed?
This my friends has been my journey since May of this year. As it is written in John 10:10-The enemy comes to steal kill and destroy, but I have come that you would have Life in Abundance!
I share this with you today hoping~praying you know the only way I've been able to make it thru this very difficult season is with the word of God by reading the One Year Bible. If you are reading this, I know some of you are not in favor of a daily reading program like a One Year Bible. I just finished watching a TV program with my Pastor Robert Morris and James Robison of Life Today. It was about 'Being Set Free' and the only way to do this is with God's word. I know this as it was 2005 I began my journey of being 'Set Free' with God's Word using the One Year Bible. It was and is somewhat of a discipleship program of which I now believe is the Mission of the Vision God gave me in 2007.
Again, if you are reading this it is quite possibly by accident or maybe I linked this to you via 'twitter' as I am praying with much passion that together we can make a difference in our homes, cities, states and the world with helping more people get 'Set Free' by reading God's word with the One Year Bible!
And yes....I do agree, Free people help people get set free....as you know Trusting God for All!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Expectations~Truths vs. Lies
Whew.
Again, a Season ending and a new Season beginning. And the word God has kept showing me during this Season is 'Expectations.'
Just sittin here in this moment, allowing the Holy Spirit to lead my fingers, tears are beginning to well up in my eyes.
My heavens, I'm such a silly girl. Much like a Princess learning to be a 'true Daughter of God.' I have to confess, this Season has been one of the most painful and understandably so, it's the one I think I've grown the most.
God has continued to place me in situations that while I didn't think 'I' could get through, he has reminded me-that's right-I can't, but He will be there every step of the way.
The First 'Expectation' of truth and lies I've learned involves me getting Re-married. I like many, thought Re-Marriage was gonna solve all my problems. Not all-but because I met my Husband in church and we both read the One Year Bible at the beginning of each day, I thought this meant we were 'problem free.' Right? We go to church and are 'equally yoked' so surely everything is gonna be perfect? Lie. The truth I've learned is God provided/ placed a Man in my life for His purpose and plan-not mine. So-reality is as you've read, there have been many times we have had our struggles-today I know more than ever how great God's grace really is as 'those struggles' have actually brought us closer together.
The next 'Expectation' involves this 'new place' I'm living. Yes-it has allowed me to be closer to my Daughter's-PRAISE GOD! However, this too seems part of God's plan to teach me many things-the most important-forgiveness. At the beginning of August, I posted about my car being stolen. Well-blah. The car is back, completely repaired, actually runs like new! (It's for sale as well-let me know if you would like to buy it?) 2 weeks ago, I rec'd a call. They had charged a 16 yr old kid with stealing it and I could be present at the hearing to speak-see-meet what I considered at the time the 'punk kid' who caused me so much pain and suffering. Many cautioned me against going. However, something in me, said go. I went. Gosh-God is so amazing. I sensed immediately the amount of anger and frustration with this kid and a couple others. kept hearing the song, "He Loves Us Oh How he Loves Us...!" At this moment, my heart was breaking. I wanted to go up and speak to the couple Dad's to tell them about God's grace. I didn't because I didn't know the 'rules.' What I really wished is that I had a Blessed Assurance bus. card or better yet a couple One Year Bible's to give-again-didn't. Actually-you know the truth here-there was no 'I' in this moment-I honestly believe it was God showing me what He wanted me to do. Anyways-it was my kid's turn for his hearing. It only took a couple questions from the judge to the kid, for me to begin to tear up. The 'punk kid' was just another 'sweet son of God' who was a victim of divorce. He was brought to Texas to live with his Dad, but told the judge as he teared how much he wanted to be back home in California and how much he missed His Mother. I heard clearly what I sensed and why I was there. The judge allowed me to speak. I told the kid it was wrong to take out his anger and frustration on me, another Mother, how much pain He had caused me-another Mother, but most important, A Mother's Love never ends and if it took Him to steal my car to be able to go back to live with His Mother-I'm grateful. He then had the opportunity to tell me he was sorry and He did as he teared. At that point, saw God's hand in this-prayed to move on.
Last Friday, I rec'd notice they've charged another kid. (There were 5, but not all will be charged.) This time, I pray to extend the same forgiveness. This time, it will be alittle harder because I think this is the kid who ditched my Daughter's baby books and the other things really special to me. However-this time, I have asked to be more involved in the sentencing. I plan to ask for Restitution(the other kid was ordered to pay me a small amount), but I'm also praying to ask the Judge for me to give the kid a One Year Bible which he will be required to read during His probation.
The next 'Expectation' I'm feeling led to share involves my church. Please hear my heart and hear the truth and the lies with this. I've shared how special my church has been to me. It has been a true 'gateway' to where God is taking me. The lie about this is, I thought it would be the 'save all' church. I've shared with almost every Leader, really anyone I can about the value of the One Year Bible to any New Believer or anyone who is at 'that moment' in time when something happens and there is nothing else to turn to. Again, hear my heart of sweetness and know how I've prayed to let go of all bitterness. It's been really tough. This is a church that is all about people. The lie I've listened too is, 'Why aren't they about me?'
A couple months ago, my Husband began telling me, he felt it was time for us to visit other churches. I didn't tell him, but I was alittle bothered. Remember 'this' is the church that's gonna get me somewhere. Well-we've been visiting a new church in the area that focuses on healing. The past 3 weeks have been amazing. This past weekend, I practiced something new for me. I had planned to attend a Woman's event Saturday. That morning, God said, 'Remember-no Expectations.' When I walked in the door to register, they said-we have a couple FREE spots. You don't have pay. I grinned and told them I was visiting and Thank you so much. Next, I went to sign-in. The Lady there said 'Welcome Home.' That in itself sent chills and was such sweet confirmation as I had been hearing about God's perfect order- a Heavenly Home, A Church Home and a Home to live in. I knew my Heavenly Home was in tact, had been praying for a Church Home for my Husband and I and continue to pray for the Home to live in. Wow. Then, as I was standing in line, met a Lady who was very God appointed. She came back in a few minutes to tell me she saved a spot for me at her table. Yup-the table was in the front row-only God knew me and my love for being part of the 'front row club.'
The last 'Expectation' I will share is about our beautiful country-The Land of the Free where it is IN GOD WE TRUST~AMERICA! This one hurts. WE as a nation have done a really good job of letting go of our Freedom and a really better job of taking God out of every aspect of our lives: our jobs, DC and public schools. WE have done this. You might say as well as I've been guilty of the same, that I didn't vote for this or that. Guess what-you did. The fact that WE are where we are with this 'separation between Church and State' is a complete cop out. I'm not overly involved with the 'Wake Up America' group as I don't do very well following in other's than God. I too without knowing it, 'Expected' much of the past President and the same of the future. The problem is, I haven't done anything about it but sit back. I believe there will be a time and place for me to make a difference in this great country....not sure when, what situation-that's up to God.
Today~I woke up with a new 'Expectation.' NONE. As I complete this blog, I feel the sweet presence of God. My only 'Expectation' is in Him. There is a freshness in this new season. Fresh smells, fresh people, fresh opportunities....as you know...Trusting Go for All!
Again, a Season ending and a new Season beginning. And the word God has kept showing me during this Season is 'Expectations.'
Just sittin here in this moment, allowing the Holy Spirit to lead my fingers, tears are beginning to well up in my eyes.
My heavens, I'm such a silly girl. Much like a Princess learning to be a 'true Daughter of God.' I have to confess, this Season has been one of the most painful and understandably so, it's the one I think I've grown the most.
God has continued to place me in situations that while I didn't think 'I' could get through, he has reminded me-that's right-I can't, but He will be there every step of the way.
The First 'Expectation' of truth and lies I've learned involves me getting Re-married. I like many, thought Re-Marriage was gonna solve all my problems. Not all-but because I met my Husband in church and we both read the One Year Bible at the beginning of each day, I thought this meant we were 'problem free.' Right? We go to church and are 'equally yoked' so surely everything is gonna be perfect? Lie. The truth I've learned is God provided/ placed a Man in my life for His purpose and plan-not mine. So-reality is as you've read, there have been many times we have had our struggles-today I know more than ever how great God's grace really is as 'those struggles' have actually brought us closer together.
The next 'Expectation' involves this 'new place' I'm living. Yes-it has allowed me to be closer to my Daughter's-PRAISE GOD! However, this too seems part of God's plan to teach me many things-the most important-forgiveness. At the beginning of August, I posted about my car being stolen. Well-blah. The car is back, completely repaired, actually runs like new! (It's for sale as well-let me know if you would like to buy it?) 2 weeks ago, I rec'd a call. They had charged a 16 yr old kid with stealing it and I could be present at the hearing to speak-see-meet what I considered at the time the 'punk kid' who caused me so much pain and suffering. Many cautioned me against going. However, something in me, said go. I went. Gosh-God is so amazing. I sensed immediately the amount of anger and frustration with this kid and a couple others. kept hearing the song, "He Loves Us Oh How he Loves Us...!" At this moment, my heart was breaking. I wanted to go up and speak to the couple Dad's to tell them about God's grace. I didn't because I didn't know the 'rules.' What I really wished is that I had a Blessed Assurance bus. card or better yet a couple One Year Bible's to give-again-didn't. Actually-you know the truth here-there was no 'I' in this moment-I honestly believe it was God showing me what He wanted me to do. Anyways-it was my kid's turn for his hearing. It only took a couple questions from the judge to the kid, for me to begin to tear up. The 'punk kid' was just another 'sweet son of God' who was a victim of divorce. He was brought to Texas to live with his Dad, but told the judge as he teared how much he wanted to be back home in California and how much he missed His Mother. I heard clearly what I sensed and why I was there. The judge allowed me to speak. I told the kid it was wrong to take out his anger and frustration on me, another Mother, how much pain He had caused me-another Mother, but most important, A Mother's Love never ends and if it took Him to steal my car to be able to go back to live with His Mother-I'm grateful. He then had the opportunity to tell me he was sorry and He did as he teared. At that point, saw God's hand in this-prayed to move on.
Last Friday, I rec'd notice they've charged another kid. (There were 5, but not all will be charged.) This time, I pray to extend the same forgiveness. This time, it will be alittle harder because I think this is the kid who ditched my Daughter's baby books and the other things really special to me. However-this time, I have asked to be more involved in the sentencing. I plan to ask for Restitution(the other kid was ordered to pay me a small amount), but I'm also praying to ask the Judge for me to give the kid a One Year Bible which he will be required to read during His probation.
The next 'Expectation' I'm feeling led to share involves my church. Please hear my heart and hear the truth and the lies with this. I've shared how special my church has been to me. It has been a true 'gateway' to where God is taking me. The lie about this is, I thought it would be the 'save all' church. I've shared with almost every Leader, really anyone I can about the value of the One Year Bible to any New Believer or anyone who is at 'that moment' in time when something happens and there is nothing else to turn to. Again, hear my heart of sweetness and know how I've prayed to let go of all bitterness. It's been really tough. This is a church that is all about people. The lie I've listened too is, 'Why aren't they about me?'
A couple months ago, my Husband began telling me, he felt it was time for us to visit other churches. I didn't tell him, but I was alittle bothered. Remember 'this' is the church that's gonna get me somewhere. Well-we've been visiting a new church in the area that focuses on healing. The past 3 weeks have been amazing. This past weekend, I practiced something new for me. I had planned to attend a Woman's event Saturday. That morning, God said, 'Remember-no Expectations.' When I walked in the door to register, they said-we have a couple FREE spots. You don't have pay. I grinned and told them I was visiting and Thank you so much. Next, I went to sign-in. The Lady there said 'Welcome Home.' That in itself sent chills and was such sweet confirmation as I had been hearing about God's perfect order- a Heavenly Home, A Church Home and a Home to live in. I knew my Heavenly Home was in tact, had been praying for a Church Home for my Husband and I and continue to pray for the Home to live in. Wow. Then, as I was standing in line, met a Lady who was very God appointed. She came back in a few minutes to tell me she saved a spot for me at her table. Yup-the table was in the front row-only God knew me and my love for being part of the 'front row club.'
The last 'Expectation' I will share is about our beautiful country-The Land of the Free where it is IN GOD WE TRUST~AMERICA! This one hurts. WE as a nation have done a really good job of letting go of our Freedom and a really better job of taking God out of every aspect of our lives: our jobs, DC and public schools. WE have done this. You might say as well as I've been guilty of the same, that I didn't vote for this or that. Guess what-you did. The fact that WE are where we are with this 'separation between Church and State' is a complete cop out. I'm not overly involved with the 'Wake Up America' group as I don't do very well following in other's than God. I too without knowing it, 'Expected' much of the past President and the same of the future. The problem is, I haven't done anything about it but sit back. I believe there will be a time and place for me to make a difference in this great country....not sure when, what situation-that's up to God.
Today~I woke up with a new 'Expectation.' NONE. As I complete this blog, I feel the sweet presence of God. My only 'Expectation' is in Him. There is a freshness in this new season. Fresh smells, fresh people, fresh opportunities....as you know...Trusting Go for All!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
God's 'Amazing Grace'~part 2
In my last post, I mentioned the work God was doing in me and God's amazing grace. Odd enough, that day I had a really bad 'gut' ache deep in my stomach...hence the amount of typo's in the blog. Well-that day about 4:00, I walked outside and realized my car was gone. To many-no biggie, to me it was. God has had me in the 'wilderness' for the past 4 years. I've lived in 2/3 apartments, out of my car and have felt like I was 'just passing thru.' Knowing this, the things most important to me, stayed in my trunk. For example, my Daughter's Baby books and my other Baby-the portfolio for the vision for the ministry God gave me-Blessed Assurance. I kept thinking, the car and the stuff would show up.
Late Tuesday night, I received a phone call from a girl about 30 miles out, telling me she found a some of my Blessed Assurance business cards and a few other misc. things. After I felt the peace that she wasn't involved in taking the car, we enjoyed a conversation about God.
The sad part was I realized the reality of my car and 'my life' in it.
Thursday morning, I received a call that my car was found. I guess I thought if my car was found, the things precious to me would still be in it. Nope.
I was allowed to see my car, whom the 'ugly' people made it 'their own.' Blah.
Tearfully, I asked God why and what was I supposed to learn with this? Then it came to me, my Baby Books, etc. might be gone, but my 'babies'(Daughter's) and the Ministry are still here.
I had met with the Police dept. during the process and let them know I wasn't really 'feelin the love' from them. It seemed they weren't really doing anything to help me with the car as well as an awful amount of 'lack of communication.' At this point, I mentioned I was glad it was just my car and not anything more.
Well, Friday night things changed. My nephew died. At first, we thought it was natural causes and I was grateful we weren't going to have to deal with more 'un-compassionate' police people. Sad to say, it wasn't natural.
Anyways, I felt an amazing amount of peace. Couldn't and really haven't been able to share with many because death to most is not good.
Well-God has created something 'special' in me. I have and view death as a really 'sweet' time of true celebration. The full circle of life is absolutely precious to me. I understand that career test from High school so well.
The message is 'true surrender' to God's plan...not ours. Please hear the sweetness in my heart and know I am VERY sympathetic...remember I'm a natural born Chaplain just now discovering what that really means.
I've shared much about the vision of Blessed Assurance and most has been directed at the One Year Bible.
The part I don't think I've shared is when I first started 'hearing' from God.
It was during the death of my oldest Daughter's friend, that I met with His Family at a hotel to talk about the 'arrangements.' It was so sad that the people, workers, etc. had no idea what they were dealing with. At that point, it 'hit' me. Wouldn't it be sweet if there were something like a Bed and Breakfast for Families to stay in together while they were dealing with a time in life they probably weren't expecting. A place where all ages could begin the grieving process. Area's where Adults could congregate, coloring/media rooms for kids to play, and outdoor activities to be outdoors again during an unexpected time. To have workers love on the Family again during this time to let them know they really care. AMAZING! In the end, they would leave this 'time' here at the B&B. They would receive what you might guess is a copy of the One Year Bible to begin their new journey without this 'Loved one.' And if they would like, they could return to 'Memorialize' their 'loved one' at anytime.
During the last couple days, I've been seeing how GREAT this idea is. As many Family members are Flying in town and needing places to stay, it is my prayer they come in contact with some compassionate people who let them know they really care. I am praying to continue to see God's amazing grace in many~especially myself!
Again, if you see my Passion for God and His Love for us, I would love to meet with you to begin what He started in me 5 years ago. YES, I am asking for ALL help. Help with Faith Based Grants, Donations~any and everything you might have to offer. Yup...you know the ending...Trusting God for All.
I will finish with one of the many songs fitting for this time:
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
Late Tuesday night, I received a phone call from a girl about 30 miles out, telling me she found a some of my Blessed Assurance business cards and a few other misc. things. After I felt the peace that she wasn't involved in taking the car, we enjoyed a conversation about God.
The sad part was I realized the reality of my car and 'my life' in it.
Thursday morning, I received a call that my car was found. I guess I thought if my car was found, the things precious to me would still be in it. Nope.
I was allowed to see my car, whom the 'ugly' people made it 'their own.' Blah.
Tearfully, I asked God why and what was I supposed to learn with this? Then it came to me, my Baby Books, etc. might be gone, but my 'babies'(Daughter's) and the Ministry are still here.
I had met with the Police dept. during the process and let them know I wasn't really 'feelin the love' from them. It seemed they weren't really doing anything to help me with the car as well as an awful amount of 'lack of communication.' At this point, I mentioned I was glad it was just my car and not anything more.
Well, Friday night things changed. My nephew died. At first, we thought it was natural causes and I was grateful we weren't going to have to deal with more 'un-compassionate' police people. Sad to say, it wasn't natural.
Anyways, I felt an amazing amount of peace. Couldn't and really haven't been able to share with many because death to most is not good.
Well-God has created something 'special' in me. I have and view death as a really 'sweet' time of true celebration. The full circle of life is absolutely precious to me. I understand that career test from High school so well.
The message is 'true surrender' to God's plan...not ours. Please hear the sweetness in my heart and know I am VERY sympathetic...remember I'm a natural born Chaplain just now discovering what that really means.
I've shared much about the vision of Blessed Assurance and most has been directed at the One Year Bible.
The part I don't think I've shared is when I first started 'hearing' from God.
It was during the death of my oldest Daughter's friend, that I met with His Family at a hotel to talk about the 'arrangements.' It was so sad that the people, workers, etc. had no idea what they were dealing with. At that point, it 'hit' me. Wouldn't it be sweet if there were something like a Bed and Breakfast for Families to stay in together while they were dealing with a time in life they probably weren't expecting. A place where all ages could begin the grieving process. Area's where Adults could congregate, coloring/media rooms for kids to play, and outdoor activities to be outdoors again during an unexpected time. To have workers love on the Family again during this time to let them know they really care. AMAZING! In the end, they would leave this 'time' here at the B&B. They would receive what you might guess is a copy of the One Year Bible to begin their new journey without this 'Loved one.' And if they would like, they could return to 'Memorialize' their 'loved one' at anytime.
During the last couple days, I've been seeing how GREAT this idea is. As many Family members are Flying in town and needing places to stay, it is my prayer they come in contact with some compassionate people who let them know they really care. I am praying to continue to see God's amazing grace in many~especially myself!
Again, if you see my Passion for God and His Love for us, I would love to meet with you to begin what He started in me 5 years ago. YES, I am asking for ALL help. Help with Faith Based Grants, Donations~any and everything you might have to offer. Yup...you know the ending...Trusting God for All.
I will finish with one of the many songs fitting for this time:
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
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