It’s been a while since my last blog post as I continue to seek God for what’s next, I recently had some wonderful clarity I had been praying for.
In 2006, after I had been reading the One Year Bible steadily for one year. I would wake up every night at 3:00 with what seemed chapter titles to a book. The odd part is the chapters weren’t written Funny. Today, as I smile and tears well up in my eyes, that would be a correct statement as most of the ‘story’ of each chapter was just being written (lived) with this new transformation of the way I used to live-‘the old me-sin nature’ verses this new ‘reborn me-Spirit Driven.’
The whole story is about ‘sweet redemption’ and knowing who I am in Christ, He is my provider, He will never leave me or forsake me, and most important there is NOTHING I can do in my own strength-it is all His. God loves me! His Word is the ‘truth and light’ I choose to live by.
In my last blog, I mentioned how God had begun healing so many areas of my life and many in my inner circle. He began shedding the ‘light’ I had been praying for what seemed ‘forever.’ If you’ve read my previous entries, you know the ‘storm’ we went thru and again, I pray you understand, I didn’t and couldn’t have gone thru this without this sweet God of ours and His Word holding my hand every step of the way with the daily Bible reading. (One Year Bible)
As I mentioned in the past, I don’t believe in coincidences. I do believe they are God’s way of being anonymous. ‘ One’ of the praise reports of the amazing healing God has done is my husband and I joined the church (Cross Timbers/Keller, Texas) we had been visiting that I mentioned in the past that really made us feel like we ‘had come home’ and are really part of a family. The Pastor, (Toby Slough) has incredible ‘anointing’ with his timing and delivery. The last song during the worship service was yes, you might guess, Blessed Assurance and the message was straight from Deuteronomy 8 which if you’re reading this blog, you see the name of the ministry God gave me and yup my complete testimony is based on this scripture. As he was talking, tears were running down my cheeks as I began to realize God was speaking to me.
These past couple months, I really sensed God was about to get me busy and yes that would be an understatement. I began working as a Chaplain in the ‘workplace’ as well as I have been doing some on-site Leasing with an amazing company where God is so present-unbelievable! Well-as it turns out, both humbled and sad, I ended up having to resign from the position of Chaplain as I realized I didn’t fit their model. I honestly felt the Lord was using me more with the on-site leasing. This was especially tough because you know how much the calling of Chaplain means to me. However, when I started liking the ‘title’ of Chaplain more than what this particular company did, I knew pride was setting in and I needed to let it go.
I’m not going to go into detail about how much things have changed in the past 4 months, but I will say with complete confidence GOD IS GOOD! He is a God of Redemption if you will choose to make Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior, read the word, seek God, and begin the most incredible journey of your life where peace and joy become your life no matter what is going on!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
In 'Awe' of God's Faithfulness
I'm pretty sure this is going to be Part 1 of a continued blog.
Today in Texas, it's snowing. We've actually had ice since Tuesday. For me, as I prepared for the week on Sunday, not knowing exactly what God had planned, I knew I didn't have a whole lot going on. Yes-we serve a Faithful God. Schools have been closed since Tuesday and many businesses and churches have done the same. (kind of sad for the Super Bowl planners)
Just sitting here, looking out the window, watching the fluffy snow come down is a Blessing. Sitting here, knowing today more than ever, my circumstances don't determine my peace and joy. Looking forward to playing in it later with my Husband and kids!)
It's been a really sweet week of reflection on where I was, what I've prayed for and how God is an amazing God and is Faithful.
Recently, I heard a good phrase that is Biblical: 'Those who trust in God, shall not be disappointed!'
Yes! That was actually 2 weeks ago at my Ladies group and I continue to say and know the truth behind the words.
As I write this blog, I'm reminded this is a blog about what God is doing in Me. I was told in a prophetic word in 2009, 'MY' life is an 'open book'. So-in a effort to keep this about 'God and me', I will try not to include too many other's as they have all not said I should make their life part of this 'open book.'
Having just written this, there are a couple things I want to share to give you hope, maybe even direction if some of what you're reading touches you.
This past month, many prayers have begun to be answered. One, is knowing God's plan and purpose for my life and seeing God's plan and purpose begin to 'grow' in the lives of my daughter's. It is my prayer, if you have children or you're an adult 'still searching' this might touch You.
As you've read, I divorced in 2005. As you know and might have experienced in your own life, divorce 'can be' the single thing that makes or breaks a person's life. For me, this might not have happened had I been reading/receiving/living the Word as I do today. Also, I might have been more 'in tune' with God's purpose and plan in my life earlier had I been reading/receiving/living God's word as I do believe the job of being a Chaplain was very clear when I was a Senior in High School.
My passion seems to be growing as God's promises begin showing here at home. You see, the 'seed' that was planted in me with God's word (now more than 5 years ago with the daily reading in the One Year Bible) has been 'growing!'
It's almost as if, when I divorced, I was able to see my daughter's in a new way. As you've read, I was the one who moved. With this came a surrender like no other, a surrender to giving them back to God. As I gave them back to God, he began showing me who He created them to be for His glory. Again, keeping the blog about me, it would be very un-natural for me not to share how God has Blessed me with what He is doing in their lives and how He plans to use them.
Early on, the oldest began showing her academic and leadership skills. It was natural to encourage her in this direction. When she was in 2nd grade, I had great fun helping her study as she would type her spelling words 3 times each on the computer not only learning to spell but also getting comfortable using the computer. In High School, she tried her first beauty pageant and won! We laughed for days as we were anything but the normal beauty pageant people. God allowed her to win as she given a small college scholarship which became important when she headed off to school. She is a Senior in college where she is VP of the Student Government and President of so many groups I can't even remember. This week, she was accepted to Law School. She has an idea of what area she would like to practice. As you can guess, I continue to pray for God to continue directing her steps as they are WAY bigger than I could have ever imagined. I will say, it is my prayer the day she is Blessed to be a Mom, it doesn't take her the same 22 years to embrace, as it did me. She walks around with a very humbled attitude saying, "Jesus loves Me!"
The middle daughter is left handed. My family was so typical-yes-they would place the fork on the right side of the plate at dinner hoping they could change this. At the age of 4, she began playing soccer. Her dad is a natural athlete and this gift passed to her. To keep this about me, all I will say is, sometimes dad's put a little pressure on their athletic kids when they themselves can't do what they're telling their kids to do on the field. As divorce happened, she lost her 'love' of playing. For me, again as I stepped out, I began encouraging her in a new way. Really praying for God to direct her steps (no pun intended). Her, being Left handed has been such a gift. She is strong both mentally and physically on both sides. Last year she started playing for a new Select soccer team. Her new Coach has been such a Blessing. During a tournament in May, the new coach had asked a coach from a Big 12 College to stop by and see her. By the end of the month, we were invited to visit and on Father's day (June), she made her verbal commitment. This week, I am happy to say she was one of many to participate in the National Letter of Intent Signing Day where she will play for one of the Big 12 Colleges. My prayer for her is God would continue 'directing her steps' on the soccer field. She contiues to say, "No matter what, it always works out for me."
There are 6 kids in this now Blended Family, so guess what? As they allow me, I will share what God is doing in their lives as He is such a Faithful God.
For me, the calling of Chaplain seemed so vague however today, seems so clear. The idea of being there for a kid or an adult who is experiencing pain and is acting out in anger and frustration means so much to me. As I read today in the One Year Bible about Moses and how God has taken him out of Egypt, I am humbled. I see this in my life and I see this in our country with Egypt as the crisis in Cairo continues.
The journey to understanding our purpose and plan can be extremely frustrating. However, with God and His WORD, again, I promise, knowing today more than ever He is a Faithful God!
....as You know...Trusting God for ALL!
Today in Texas, it's snowing. We've actually had ice since Tuesday. For me, as I prepared for the week on Sunday, not knowing exactly what God had planned, I knew I didn't have a whole lot going on. Yes-we serve a Faithful God. Schools have been closed since Tuesday and many businesses and churches have done the same. (kind of sad for the Super Bowl planners)
Just sitting here, looking out the window, watching the fluffy snow come down is a Blessing. Sitting here, knowing today more than ever, my circumstances don't determine my peace and joy. Looking forward to playing in it later with my Husband and kids!)
It's been a really sweet week of reflection on where I was, what I've prayed for and how God is an amazing God and is Faithful.
Recently, I heard a good phrase that is Biblical: 'Those who trust in God, shall not be disappointed!'
Yes! That was actually 2 weeks ago at my Ladies group and I continue to say and know the truth behind the words.
As I write this blog, I'm reminded this is a blog about what God is doing in Me. I was told in a prophetic word in 2009, 'MY' life is an 'open book'. So-in a effort to keep this about 'God and me', I will try not to include too many other's as they have all not said I should make their life part of this 'open book.'
Having just written this, there are a couple things I want to share to give you hope, maybe even direction if some of what you're reading touches you.
This past month, many prayers have begun to be answered. One, is knowing God's plan and purpose for my life and seeing God's plan and purpose begin to 'grow' in the lives of my daughter's. It is my prayer, if you have children or you're an adult 'still searching' this might touch You.
As you've read, I divorced in 2005. As you know and might have experienced in your own life, divorce 'can be' the single thing that makes or breaks a person's life. For me, this might not have happened had I been reading/receiving/living the Word as I do today. Also, I might have been more 'in tune' with God's purpose and plan in my life earlier had I been reading/receiving/living God's word as I do believe the job of being a Chaplain was very clear when I was a Senior in High School.
My passion seems to be growing as God's promises begin showing here at home. You see, the 'seed' that was planted in me with God's word (now more than 5 years ago with the daily reading in the One Year Bible) has been 'growing!'
It's almost as if, when I divorced, I was able to see my daughter's in a new way. As you've read, I was the one who moved. With this came a surrender like no other, a surrender to giving them back to God. As I gave them back to God, he began showing me who He created them to be for His glory. Again, keeping the blog about me, it would be very un-natural for me not to share how God has Blessed me with what He is doing in their lives and how He plans to use them.
Early on, the oldest began showing her academic and leadership skills. It was natural to encourage her in this direction. When she was in 2nd grade, I had great fun helping her study as she would type her spelling words 3 times each on the computer not only learning to spell but also getting comfortable using the computer. In High School, she tried her first beauty pageant and won! We laughed for days as we were anything but the normal beauty pageant people. God allowed her to win as she given a small college scholarship which became important when she headed off to school. She is a Senior in college where she is VP of the Student Government and President of so many groups I can't even remember. This week, she was accepted to Law School. She has an idea of what area she would like to practice. As you can guess, I continue to pray for God to continue directing her steps as they are WAY bigger than I could have ever imagined. I will say, it is my prayer the day she is Blessed to be a Mom, it doesn't take her the same 22 years to embrace, as it did me. She walks around with a very humbled attitude saying, "Jesus loves Me!"
The middle daughter is left handed. My family was so typical-yes-they would place the fork on the right side of the plate at dinner hoping they could change this. At the age of 4, she began playing soccer. Her dad is a natural athlete and this gift passed to her. To keep this about me, all I will say is, sometimes dad's put a little pressure on their athletic kids when they themselves can't do what they're telling their kids to do on the field. As divorce happened, she lost her 'love' of playing. For me, again as I stepped out, I began encouraging her in a new way. Really praying for God to direct her steps (no pun intended). Her, being Left handed has been such a gift. She is strong both mentally and physically on both sides. Last year she started playing for a new Select soccer team. Her new Coach has been such a Blessing. During a tournament in May, the new coach had asked a coach from a Big 12 College to stop by and see her. By the end of the month, we were invited to visit and on Father's day (June), she made her verbal commitment. This week, I am happy to say she was one of many to participate in the National Letter of Intent Signing Day where she will play for one of the Big 12 Colleges. My prayer for her is God would continue 'directing her steps' on the soccer field. She contiues to say, "No matter what, it always works out for me."
There are 6 kids in this now Blended Family, so guess what? As they allow me, I will share what God is doing in their lives as He is such a Faithful God.
For me, the calling of Chaplain seemed so vague however today, seems so clear. The idea of being there for a kid or an adult who is experiencing pain and is acting out in anger and frustration means so much to me. As I read today in the One Year Bible about Moses and how God has taken him out of Egypt, I am humbled. I see this in my life and I see this in our country with Egypt as the crisis in Cairo continues.
The journey to understanding our purpose and plan can be extremely frustrating. However, with God and His WORD, again, I promise, knowing today more than ever He is a Faithful God!
....as You know...Trusting God for ALL!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
2011-'Redeemed and Set Free'
2010 was a year of many tests. I've heard many say 10 means tests which turn into your 'Testimony!' Yes I would have to agree. I've also heard 10+1 means new. And yes-I am looking forward to many 'new' doors opening this year.
It was this time last year I watched the movie "Julia and Julia" that led me to begin blogging honestly not knowing why and really not sure anyone is really following. Odd enough, as I read thru the year, I see a person who has been tested in many ways and has remained Faithful knowing 'with God All things are possible.'
As I was reflecting on the year, yes there was much happening and along the way a couple amazing things I'm not sure I've shared.
From there, I was led to re-read my journals I've kept since 2005 when God got hold of me. Much focus as been on my Daughters, Family Real Estate Business, my divorce, my 'calling in life' to be a Chaplain-how, when and where, and finally my Re-Marriage. Pretty much, if it happened it got written about. wow.
The common thread with all of the things I journal about is the amazing journey I've been on and the healing that has been occurring and the freedom from many years of chains being let go.
I knew God was completely in control, what I didn't realize is how hard it would be for me, being the perfectionist, to completely 'let go' and be 'set free.'
After my car was stolen in August, it was found and I was led to sell it. I used the proceeds to do something I've never done which was to embrace the best job I've had for now 22 years and that is 'being a Mom.' I continued to maintain my Real Estate activities on a much smaller level and allowed my self to enjoy the Holidays with the girls as I've never done before. No financial burdens, work burdens just enjoy. (yes many thought I was nuts, but today I will tell you it was the BEST thing I've ever done.)
I was able to borrow a car and attend a week long Chaplain training seminar which was a result of me getting to meet the Chaplains at the Juvenile Court when I attended the hearing for the 2 kids charged for stealing my car. It was like I would walk out of the training every day extremely tearful as I was understanding so much of myself and the purpose and passion God had created in me. So many years of me feeling like I just didn't fit it really began making sense. Almost like taking your foot and putting it in a shoe and it fitting oh so perfect.
I also bought 4 boxes of the One Year Bible in hopes to begin sort of a 'Discipleship Training Program.' (many know it's my prayer to share my story of hope completely with the help of this amazing journey of reading and receiving the Word with this Daily program and for it to eventually be used as the curriculem esp. in Texas where a Law was passed that Bible Literacy is to be taught!)
Then in November a prophetic message came that said, "You are ready to do what God has called you to do, you are SET FREE!" (Yes-I was anticipating this as the One Year Bible reading was in the book of Ezekiel.)
It's still very early in the year and my blog of Trusting God for All has honestly began to be very real in every aspect of my life. I find myself relying on him for just about everything and a couple times when I forget-like when technology tries to fail-I'm quick to say, "yup-this one is your's too God!"
I won't even try to see or say what God has in store for me. Today in the One Year Bible in the book of Matthew it says, "You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But, the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it."
What I will say, is I'm continuing on the 'narrow' path ready to enter God's Kingdom and will close with the following prayer and yes as you know....Trusting God for All!
Our Father in heaven,
may your name be kept holy.
May your Kingdom come soon.
May your will be done on earth,
as it is in heaven.
Give us today the food we need,
and forgive us our sins,
as we have forgiven those who
sin against us.
And don't let us yield to temptation,
but rescue us from the evil one.
It was this time last year I watched the movie "Julia and Julia" that led me to begin blogging honestly not knowing why and really not sure anyone is really following. Odd enough, as I read thru the year, I see a person who has been tested in many ways and has remained Faithful knowing 'with God All things are possible.'
As I was reflecting on the year, yes there was much happening and along the way a couple amazing things I'm not sure I've shared.
From there, I was led to re-read my journals I've kept since 2005 when God got hold of me. Much focus as been on my Daughters, Family Real Estate Business, my divorce, my 'calling in life' to be a Chaplain-how, when and where, and finally my Re-Marriage. Pretty much, if it happened it got written about. wow.
The common thread with all of the things I journal about is the amazing journey I've been on and the healing that has been occurring and the freedom from many years of chains being let go.
I knew God was completely in control, what I didn't realize is how hard it would be for me, being the perfectionist, to completely 'let go' and be 'set free.'
After my car was stolen in August, it was found and I was led to sell it. I used the proceeds to do something I've never done which was to embrace the best job I've had for now 22 years and that is 'being a Mom.' I continued to maintain my Real Estate activities on a much smaller level and allowed my self to enjoy the Holidays with the girls as I've never done before. No financial burdens, work burdens just enjoy. (yes many thought I was nuts, but today I will tell you it was the BEST thing I've ever done.)
I was able to borrow a car and attend a week long Chaplain training seminar which was a result of me getting to meet the Chaplains at the Juvenile Court when I attended the hearing for the 2 kids charged for stealing my car. It was like I would walk out of the training every day extremely tearful as I was understanding so much of myself and the purpose and passion God had created in me. So many years of me feeling like I just didn't fit it really began making sense. Almost like taking your foot and putting it in a shoe and it fitting oh so perfect.
I also bought 4 boxes of the One Year Bible in hopes to begin sort of a 'Discipleship Training Program.' (many know it's my prayer to share my story of hope completely with the help of this amazing journey of reading and receiving the Word with this Daily program and for it to eventually be used as the curriculem esp. in Texas where a Law was passed that Bible Literacy is to be taught!)
Then in November a prophetic message came that said, "You are ready to do what God has called you to do, you are SET FREE!" (Yes-I was anticipating this as the One Year Bible reading was in the book of Ezekiel.)
It's still very early in the year and my blog of Trusting God for All has honestly began to be very real in every aspect of my life. I find myself relying on him for just about everything and a couple times when I forget-like when technology tries to fail-I'm quick to say, "yup-this one is your's too God!"
I won't even try to see or say what God has in store for me. Today in the One Year Bible in the book of Matthew it says, "You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But, the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it."
What I will say, is I'm continuing on the 'narrow' path ready to enter God's Kingdom and will close with the following prayer and yes as you know....Trusting God for All!
Our Father in heaven,
may your name be kept holy.
May your Kingdom come soon.
May your will be done on earth,
as it is in heaven.
Give us today the food we need,
and forgive us our sins,
as we have forgiven those who
sin against us.
And don't let us yield to temptation,
but rescue us from the evil one.
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