It's been a while since my last blog as I have been experiencing many 'What if's' in my own personal journey:
What if you moved to a new place and your spouse decided to stay at the old place?
What if you checked your voice mail only to find your Dad had a heart attack-the one they call 'the Widow maker?'
What if you woke up one day and walked outside to find your car had been stolen?
What if that same week your nephew had died of substance related stuff?
What if you realized someone very close to you suffered an addiction and it was you who offered the glass of wine that 're-triggered' the addiction?
What if you woke up to the call that your step-daughter had a life threatening head injury that almost took her life?
What if the new place you moved allowed you to 'take back your cross' and know Jesus as Lord and God is your ultimate provider and He is ALL you need?
What if the heart attack your Dad suffered allowed him to recognize the Blessing of Life and know he got 'a second chance at Life!'
What if the car that was stolen was the event that allowed you to achieve the title of 'Chaplain' when the world said it couldn't be done?
What if the death of your nephew began to help many trying different substances to recognize the danger and choose life?
What if the addiction you found out that someone very close to you suffered allowed you to practice and really offer true unconditional Love?
What if your step daughter suffered a life threatening head injury and was about to walk out of the Hospital completely healed?
This my friends has been my journey since May of this year. As it is written in John 10:10-The enemy comes to steal kill and destroy, but I have come that you would have Life in Abundance!
I share this with you today hoping~praying you know the only way I've been able to make it thru this very difficult season is with the word of God by reading the One Year Bible. If you are reading this, I know some of you are not in favor of a daily reading program like a One Year Bible. I just finished watching a TV program with my Pastor Robert Morris and James Robison of Life Today. It was about 'Being Set Free' and the only way to do this is with God's word. I know this as it was 2005 I began my journey of being 'Set Free' with God's Word using the One Year Bible. It was and is somewhat of a discipleship program of which I now believe is the Mission of the Vision God gave me in 2007.
Again, if you are reading this it is quite possibly by accident or maybe I linked this to you via 'twitter' as I am praying with much passion that together we can make a difference in our homes, cities, states and the world with helping more people get 'Set Free' by reading God's word with the One Year Bible!
And yes....I do agree, Free people help people get set free....as you know Trusting God for All!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Expectations~Truths vs. Lies
Whew.
Again, a Season ending and a new Season beginning. And the word God has kept showing me during this Season is 'Expectations.'
Just sittin here in this moment, allowing the Holy Spirit to lead my fingers, tears are beginning to well up in my eyes.
My heavens, I'm such a silly girl. Much like a Princess learning to be a 'true Daughter of God.' I have to confess, this Season has been one of the most painful and understandably so, it's the one I think I've grown the most.
God has continued to place me in situations that while I didn't think 'I' could get through, he has reminded me-that's right-I can't, but He will be there every step of the way.
The First 'Expectation' of truth and lies I've learned involves me getting Re-married. I like many, thought Re-Marriage was gonna solve all my problems. Not all-but because I met my Husband in church and we both read the One Year Bible at the beginning of each day, I thought this meant we were 'problem free.' Right? We go to church and are 'equally yoked' so surely everything is gonna be perfect? Lie. The truth I've learned is God provided/ placed a Man in my life for His purpose and plan-not mine. So-reality is as you've read, there have been many times we have had our struggles-today I know more than ever how great God's grace really is as 'those struggles' have actually brought us closer together.
The next 'Expectation' involves this 'new place' I'm living. Yes-it has allowed me to be closer to my Daughter's-PRAISE GOD! However, this too seems part of God's plan to teach me many things-the most important-forgiveness. At the beginning of August, I posted about my car being stolen. Well-blah. The car is back, completely repaired, actually runs like new! (It's for sale as well-let me know if you would like to buy it?) 2 weeks ago, I rec'd a call. They had charged a 16 yr old kid with stealing it and I could be present at the hearing to speak-see-meet what I considered at the time the 'punk kid' who caused me so much pain and suffering. Many cautioned me against going. However, something in me, said go. I went. Gosh-God is so amazing. I sensed immediately the amount of anger and frustration with this kid and a couple others. kept hearing the song, "He Loves Us Oh How he Loves Us...!" At this moment, my heart was breaking. I wanted to go up and speak to the couple Dad's to tell them about God's grace. I didn't because I didn't know the 'rules.' What I really wished is that I had a Blessed Assurance bus. card or better yet a couple One Year Bible's to give-again-didn't. Actually-you know the truth here-there was no 'I' in this moment-I honestly believe it was God showing me what He wanted me to do. Anyways-it was my kid's turn for his hearing. It only took a couple questions from the judge to the kid, for me to begin to tear up. The 'punk kid' was just another 'sweet son of God' who was a victim of divorce. He was brought to Texas to live with his Dad, but told the judge as he teared how much he wanted to be back home in California and how much he missed His Mother. I heard clearly what I sensed and why I was there. The judge allowed me to speak. I told the kid it was wrong to take out his anger and frustration on me, another Mother, how much pain He had caused me-another Mother, but most important, A Mother's Love never ends and if it took Him to steal my car to be able to go back to live with His Mother-I'm grateful. He then had the opportunity to tell me he was sorry and He did as he teared. At that point, saw God's hand in this-prayed to move on.
Last Friday, I rec'd notice they've charged another kid. (There were 5, but not all will be charged.) This time, I pray to extend the same forgiveness. This time, it will be alittle harder because I think this is the kid who ditched my Daughter's baby books and the other things really special to me. However-this time, I have asked to be more involved in the sentencing. I plan to ask for Restitution(the other kid was ordered to pay me a small amount), but I'm also praying to ask the Judge for me to give the kid a One Year Bible which he will be required to read during His probation.
The next 'Expectation' I'm feeling led to share involves my church. Please hear my heart and hear the truth and the lies with this. I've shared how special my church has been to me. It has been a true 'gateway' to where God is taking me. The lie about this is, I thought it would be the 'save all' church. I've shared with almost every Leader, really anyone I can about the value of the One Year Bible to any New Believer or anyone who is at 'that moment' in time when something happens and there is nothing else to turn to. Again, hear my heart of sweetness and know how I've prayed to let go of all bitterness. It's been really tough. This is a church that is all about people. The lie I've listened too is, 'Why aren't they about me?'
A couple months ago, my Husband began telling me, he felt it was time for us to visit other churches. I didn't tell him, but I was alittle bothered. Remember 'this' is the church that's gonna get me somewhere. Well-we've been visiting a new church in the area that focuses on healing. The past 3 weeks have been amazing. This past weekend, I practiced something new for me. I had planned to attend a Woman's event Saturday. That morning, God said, 'Remember-no Expectations.' When I walked in the door to register, they said-we have a couple FREE spots. You don't have pay. I grinned and told them I was visiting and Thank you so much. Next, I went to sign-in. The Lady there said 'Welcome Home.' That in itself sent chills and was such sweet confirmation as I had been hearing about God's perfect order- a Heavenly Home, A Church Home and a Home to live in. I knew my Heavenly Home was in tact, had been praying for a Church Home for my Husband and I and continue to pray for the Home to live in. Wow. Then, as I was standing in line, met a Lady who was very God appointed. She came back in a few minutes to tell me she saved a spot for me at her table. Yup-the table was in the front row-only God knew me and my love for being part of the 'front row club.'
The last 'Expectation' I will share is about our beautiful country-The Land of the Free where it is IN GOD WE TRUST~AMERICA! This one hurts. WE as a nation have done a really good job of letting go of our Freedom and a really better job of taking God out of every aspect of our lives: our jobs, DC and public schools. WE have done this. You might say as well as I've been guilty of the same, that I didn't vote for this or that. Guess what-you did. The fact that WE are where we are with this 'separation between Church and State' is a complete cop out. I'm not overly involved with the 'Wake Up America' group as I don't do very well following in other's than God. I too without knowing it, 'Expected' much of the past President and the same of the future. The problem is, I haven't done anything about it but sit back. I believe there will be a time and place for me to make a difference in this great country....not sure when, what situation-that's up to God.
Today~I woke up with a new 'Expectation.' NONE. As I complete this blog, I feel the sweet presence of God. My only 'Expectation' is in Him. There is a freshness in this new season. Fresh smells, fresh people, fresh opportunities....as you know...Trusting Go for All!
Again, a Season ending and a new Season beginning. And the word God has kept showing me during this Season is 'Expectations.'
Just sittin here in this moment, allowing the Holy Spirit to lead my fingers, tears are beginning to well up in my eyes.
My heavens, I'm such a silly girl. Much like a Princess learning to be a 'true Daughter of God.' I have to confess, this Season has been one of the most painful and understandably so, it's the one I think I've grown the most.
God has continued to place me in situations that while I didn't think 'I' could get through, he has reminded me-that's right-I can't, but He will be there every step of the way.
The First 'Expectation' of truth and lies I've learned involves me getting Re-married. I like many, thought Re-Marriage was gonna solve all my problems. Not all-but because I met my Husband in church and we both read the One Year Bible at the beginning of each day, I thought this meant we were 'problem free.' Right? We go to church and are 'equally yoked' so surely everything is gonna be perfect? Lie. The truth I've learned is God provided/ placed a Man in my life for His purpose and plan-not mine. So-reality is as you've read, there have been many times we have had our struggles-today I know more than ever how great God's grace really is as 'those struggles' have actually brought us closer together.
The next 'Expectation' involves this 'new place' I'm living. Yes-it has allowed me to be closer to my Daughter's-PRAISE GOD! However, this too seems part of God's plan to teach me many things-the most important-forgiveness. At the beginning of August, I posted about my car being stolen. Well-blah. The car is back, completely repaired, actually runs like new! (It's for sale as well-let me know if you would like to buy it?) 2 weeks ago, I rec'd a call. They had charged a 16 yr old kid with stealing it and I could be present at the hearing to speak-see-meet what I considered at the time the 'punk kid' who caused me so much pain and suffering. Many cautioned me against going. However, something in me, said go. I went. Gosh-God is so amazing. I sensed immediately the amount of anger and frustration with this kid and a couple others. kept hearing the song, "He Loves Us Oh How he Loves Us...!" At this moment, my heart was breaking. I wanted to go up and speak to the couple Dad's to tell them about God's grace. I didn't because I didn't know the 'rules.' What I really wished is that I had a Blessed Assurance bus. card or better yet a couple One Year Bible's to give-again-didn't. Actually-you know the truth here-there was no 'I' in this moment-I honestly believe it was God showing me what He wanted me to do. Anyways-it was my kid's turn for his hearing. It only took a couple questions from the judge to the kid, for me to begin to tear up. The 'punk kid' was just another 'sweet son of God' who was a victim of divorce. He was brought to Texas to live with his Dad, but told the judge as he teared how much he wanted to be back home in California and how much he missed His Mother. I heard clearly what I sensed and why I was there. The judge allowed me to speak. I told the kid it was wrong to take out his anger and frustration on me, another Mother, how much pain He had caused me-another Mother, but most important, A Mother's Love never ends and if it took Him to steal my car to be able to go back to live with His Mother-I'm grateful. He then had the opportunity to tell me he was sorry and He did as he teared. At that point, saw God's hand in this-prayed to move on.
Last Friday, I rec'd notice they've charged another kid. (There were 5, but not all will be charged.) This time, I pray to extend the same forgiveness. This time, it will be alittle harder because I think this is the kid who ditched my Daughter's baby books and the other things really special to me. However-this time, I have asked to be more involved in the sentencing. I plan to ask for Restitution(the other kid was ordered to pay me a small amount), but I'm also praying to ask the Judge for me to give the kid a One Year Bible which he will be required to read during His probation.
The next 'Expectation' I'm feeling led to share involves my church. Please hear my heart and hear the truth and the lies with this. I've shared how special my church has been to me. It has been a true 'gateway' to where God is taking me. The lie about this is, I thought it would be the 'save all' church. I've shared with almost every Leader, really anyone I can about the value of the One Year Bible to any New Believer or anyone who is at 'that moment' in time when something happens and there is nothing else to turn to. Again, hear my heart of sweetness and know how I've prayed to let go of all bitterness. It's been really tough. This is a church that is all about people. The lie I've listened too is, 'Why aren't they about me?'
A couple months ago, my Husband began telling me, he felt it was time for us to visit other churches. I didn't tell him, but I was alittle bothered. Remember 'this' is the church that's gonna get me somewhere. Well-we've been visiting a new church in the area that focuses on healing. The past 3 weeks have been amazing. This past weekend, I practiced something new for me. I had planned to attend a Woman's event Saturday. That morning, God said, 'Remember-no Expectations.' When I walked in the door to register, they said-we have a couple FREE spots. You don't have pay. I grinned and told them I was visiting and Thank you so much. Next, I went to sign-in. The Lady there said 'Welcome Home.' That in itself sent chills and was such sweet confirmation as I had been hearing about God's perfect order- a Heavenly Home, A Church Home and a Home to live in. I knew my Heavenly Home was in tact, had been praying for a Church Home for my Husband and I and continue to pray for the Home to live in. Wow. Then, as I was standing in line, met a Lady who was very God appointed. She came back in a few minutes to tell me she saved a spot for me at her table. Yup-the table was in the front row-only God knew me and my love for being part of the 'front row club.'
The last 'Expectation' I will share is about our beautiful country-The Land of the Free where it is IN GOD WE TRUST~AMERICA! This one hurts. WE as a nation have done a really good job of letting go of our Freedom and a really better job of taking God out of every aspect of our lives: our jobs, DC and public schools. WE have done this. You might say as well as I've been guilty of the same, that I didn't vote for this or that. Guess what-you did. The fact that WE are where we are with this 'separation between Church and State' is a complete cop out. I'm not overly involved with the 'Wake Up America' group as I don't do very well following in other's than God. I too without knowing it, 'Expected' much of the past President and the same of the future. The problem is, I haven't done anything about it but sit back. I believe there will be a time and place for me to make a difference in this great country....not sure when, what situation-that's up to God.
Today~I woke up with a new 'Expectation.' NONE. As I complete this blog, I feel the sweet presence of God. My only 'Expectation' is in Him. There is a freshness in this new season. Fresh smells, fresh people, fresh opportunities....as you know...Trusting Go for All!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
God's 'Amazing Grace'~part 2
In my last post, I mentioned the work God was doing in me and God's amazing grace. Odd enough, that day I had a really bad 'gut' ache deep in my stomach...hence the amount of typo's in the blog. Well-that day about 4:00, I walked outside and realized my car was gone. To many-no biggie, to me it was. God has had me in the 'wilderness' for the past 4 years. I've lived in 2/3 apartments, out of my car and have felt like I was 'just passing thru.' Knowing this, the things most important to me, stayed in my trunk. For example, my Daughter's Baby books and my other Baby-the portfolio for the vision for the ministry God gave me-Blessed Assurance. I kept thinking, the car and the stuff would show up.
Late Tuesday night, I received a phone call from a girl about 30 miles out, telling me she found a some of my Blessed Assurance business cards and a few other misc. things. After I felt the peace that she wasn't involved in taking the car, we enjoyed a conversation about God.
The sad part was I realized the reality of my car and 'my life' in it.
Thursday morning, I received a call that my car was found. I guess I thought if my car was found, the things precious to me would still be in it. Nope.
I was allowed to see my car, whom the 'ugly' people made it 'their own.' Blah.
Tearfully, I asked God why and what was I supposed to learn with this? Then it came to me, my Baby Books, etc. might be gone, but my 'babies'(Daughter's) and the Ministry are still here.
I had met with the Police dept. during the process and let them know I wasn't really 'feelin the love' from them. It seemed they weren't really doing anything to help me with the car as well as an awful amount of 'lack of communication.' At this point, I mentioned I was glad it was just my car and not anything more.
Well, Friday night things changed. My nephew died. At first, we thought it was natural causes and I was grateful we weren't going to have to deal with more 'un-compassionate' police people. Sad to say, it wasn't natural.
Anyways, I felt an amazing amount of peace. Couldn't and really haven't been able to share with many because death to most is not good.
Well-God has created something 'special' in me. I have and view death as a really 'sweet' time of true celebration. The full circle of life is absolutely precious to me. I understand that career test from High school so well.
The message is 'true surrender' to God's plan...not ours. Please hear the sweetness in my heart and know I am VERY sympathetic...remember I'm a natural born Chaplain just now discovering what that really means.
I've shared much about the vision of Blessed Assurance and most has been directed at the One Year Bible.
The part I don't think I've shared is when I first started 'hearing' from God.
It was during the death of my oldest Daughter's friend, that I met with His Family at a hotel to talk about the 'arrangements.' It was so sad that the people, workers, etc. had no idea what they were dealing with. At that point, it 'hit' me. Wouldn't it be sweet if there were something like a Bed and Breakfast for Families to stay in together while they were dealing with a time in life they probably weren't expecting. A place where all ages could begin the grieving process. Area's where Adults could congregate, coloring/media rooms for kids to play, and outdoor activities to be outdoors again during an unexpected time. To have workers love on the Family again during this time to let them know they really care. AMAZING! In the end, they would leave this 'time' here at the B&B. They would receive what you might guess is a copy of the One Year Bible to begin their new journey without this 'Loved one.' And if they would like, they could return to 'Memorialize' their 'loved one' at anytime.
During the last couple days, I've been seeing how GREAT this idea is. As many Family members are Flying in town and needing places to stay, it is my prayer they come in contact with some compassionate people who let them know they really care. I am praying to continue to see God's amazing grace in many~especially myself!
Again, if you see my Passion for God and His Love for us, I would love to meet with you to begin what He started in me 5 years ago. YES, I am asking for ALL help. Help with Faith Based Grants, Donations~any and everything you might have to offer. Yup...you know the ending...Trusting God for All.
I will finish with one of the many songs fitting for this time:
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
Late Tuesday night, I received a phone call from a girl about 30 miles out, telling me she found a some of my Blessed Assurance business cards and a few other misc. things. After I felt the peace that she wasn't involved in taking the car, we enjoyed a conversation about God.
The sad part was I realized the reality of my car and 'my life' in it.
Thursday morning, I received a call that my car was found. I guess I thought if my car was found, the things precious to me would still be in it. Nope.
I was allowed to see my car, whom the 'ugly' people made it 'their own.' Blah.
Tearfully, I asked God why and what was I supposed to learn with this? Then it came to me, my Baby Books, etc. might be gone, but my 'babies'(Daughter's) and the Ministry are still here.
I had met with the Police dept. during the process and let them know I wasn't really 'feelin the love' from them. It seemed they weren't really doing anything to help me with the car as well as an awful amount of 'lack of communication.' At this point, I mentioned I was glad it was just my car and not anything more.
Well, Friday night things changed. My nephew died. At first, we thought it was natural causes and I was grateful we weren't going to have to deal with more 'un-compassionate' police people. Sad to say, it wasn't natural.
Anyways, I felt an amazing amount of peace. Couldn't and really haven't been able to share with many because death to most is not good.
Well-God has created something 'special' in me. I have and view death as a really 'sweet' time of true celebration. The full circle of life is absolutely precious to me. I understand that career test from High school so well.
The message is 'true surrender' to God's plan...not ours. Please hear the sweetness in my heart and know I am VERY sympathetic...remember I'm a natural born Chaplain just now discovering what that really means.
I've shared much about the vision of Blessed Assurance and most has been directed at the One Year Bible.
The part I don't think I've shared is when I first started 'hearing' from God.
It was during the death of my oldest Daughter's friend, that I met with His Family at a hotel to talk about the 'arrangements.' It was so sad that the people, workers, etc. had no idea what they were dealing with. At that point, it 'hit' me. Wouldn't it be sweet if there were something like a Bed and Breakfast for Families to stay in together while they were dealing with a time in life they probably weren't expecting. A place where all ages could begin the grieving process. Area's where Adults could congregate, coloring/media rooms for kids to play, and outdoor activities to be outdoors again during an unexpected time. To have workers love on the Family again during this time to let them know they really care. AMAZING! In the end, they would leave this 'time' here at the B&B. They would receive what you might guess is a copy of the One Year Bible to begin their new journey without this 'Loved one.' And if they would like, they could return to 'Memorialize' their 'loved one' at anytime.
During the last couple days, I've been seeing how GREAT this idea is. As many Family members are Flying in town and needing places to stay, it is my prayer they come in contact with some compassionate people who let them know they really care. I am praying to continue to see God's amazing grace in many~especially myself!
Again, if you see my Passion for God and His Love for us, I would love to meet with you to begin what He started in me 5 years ago. YES, I am asking for ALL help. Help with Faith Based Grants, Donations~any and everything you might have to offer. Yup...you know the ending...Trusting God for All.
I will finish with one of the many songs fitting for this time:
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
'Amazing' Journey of True 'Grace' we've been Given
I posted this on Facebook last Sunday the 25th:
'It's been an amazing couple days watching Amazing Grace while letting go of 'chains' didn't really know I needed too while reading the book, "God and George W. Bush a Spiritual Life." MANY questions about ME found in this movie and book....and funny enough Amazing Grace is one of His (GWB) favorite songs! Will post a Blog about this 'amazing' journey of true 'grace' we've been given! Guess which Bible he reads?'
July 25 at 3:17pm
My heavens, where do I start. It's like I've started and re-started this blog and it just wasn't the right 'time.'
God is so good and the 'timing' today to share is just as perfect as the continued 'Grace' I'm learning to receive.
I've shared about the transformation process God has been doing in me. Many have asked, 'What led you to this?'
Well-much like the movie 'Amazing Grace' and George W, when I look back to 2005, I didn't find God, He found me.
Many of you who've followed this blog know my past. Forgive me as I share parts again as I pray there might be 'new eyes to see' and 'ears to hear' and might be touched to see how much Mercy and Grace are there to be had-we just need to receive it!
January 1, 2005 began with no job(worked temp. @ $10 per hr),needed to take care of the DWI I got the past summer and the time was 'now' to go forward with the Divorce Petition I had filed the previous November which meant I would be moving out of my home and leaving all I knew, esp my Daughter's.
I've been a Christian for many years....however didn't really understand Grace, Faith and Love. I have chills as I share, I heard George W. Bush read the Bible in a year and was convicted. If he can do it, I could too. Started my Bible reading and didn't/couldn't find the time to read and next thing I knew 2/3 weeks passed and I was still in Genesis. I remember thinking if there was a reading plan to follow, that would work. Found my girls Precious Moments Bible and in the back was a 'reading plan.' Tried this, again, was still not disciplined to follow. One Saturday night, was at the bookstore of my 'then' church Fellowship Grapevine and the Bible that has changed my life found ME!
Began reading, feeling so overwhelmed.
Had a job opportunity offered to me....wasn't sure about it, however I felt this amazing pat on the back, "Trust in me." So- I took the job. It was funny, again I started out making $10 an hour. Next thing I knew, the DWI was done, probation started, and by mid March my Divorce was finalized. Gosh...now time to move. Much harder than I ever expected.
I began this 'Amazing Journey' of seeking the true 'Grace' Jesus died for. At this point, my Daughters were 16, 12, and 9. Today I see God's hand in this. At that time, I promise I was 'heart broken.'
I met many people during this time who are still very close friends who met me 'then' and see me 'now' which allows me to again Thank God for His mercy and 'Grace.'
2006-I left this position and went back to the 'world' of Real Estate with the Family Business. This also meant 'straight commission.' It was this year that the Deuteronomy 8 verse reached out to me. Honestly thought my 'tests' were done and life was moving 'up!'
No-not yet. Again, staying in the word...reading pretty much every day, God was transforming me. Breaking down 'Me' to be like 'Him.'
2007 started with financial Blessings from God. This allowed me to take my 1st Mission trip which was to Argentina of which I am Blessed to still be in contact with the Couple who were the hosts. (prayng now to re-visit!)
Well-here comes the part I haven't 'blogged' about because it was too painful as I didn't understand what was happening. I started having these 'Visions' about a non-profit using the One year Bible. They started small ang got big. I was working so hard on these things. As they came to me, I wrote/did everything I felt I was supposed to do. The odd part was, it seemed every Real Estate client I worked-fizzled out. (this meant zero income for me.) By November the vision was getting really exciting and life as well.(This is when I met my Husband as well as I was Baptized in the Holy Spirit.)
The hardest part was as I was 'standing firm' on 'Faith like a mustard seed' and trusting God for what he was doing in my life...my 'nest egg' was getting smaller and smaller....doing all I thought was right...still not understanding.
I began going to/thru some much needed Freedom counseling at my new church-Gateway, I was able to 're-visit' some times in my life that had held me in bondage and really speak to some "Generational Curses' form my Family line.
What I was completely un-prepared for was my 'new spirit' was so new that it was open to some really 'rough spiritual attacks.'
2008 started with me applying for Food stamps and Medicaid for my kids....humbling...
Gosh-I felt so vulnerable. It was like I felt many in my 'inner circle'saying, 'where is God...almost as if they were 'mocking' me.' I had been doing all I knew for income-applying for any job...and God clearly didn't want that for me. Quite possibly, He wanted me to see some of the life I might be Ministering too.
By March, my relationship with 'the guy' had dwindled(again this is my Husband)
It was in April the 'big' one hit me. I remember driving down the road with my 2 youngest kids and hearing very clear: 'What would you do if you had no one here on earth...no parents, kids, etc. just me to lean on?"
My parents basically created a job as New Business Dev. for me to 'get me back to work.'
The idea of 'this' was a dream job for me...somewhat like I was the 'face and voice' of the company.
It was mid April when something really 'odd' happened to me me. Friday night I couldn't sleep. I was overcome with fear...turned into Saturday and then Sunday. I didn't sleep all weekend and couldn't eat.
What was really weird, was I felt like 'everything I knew' had been zapped. Today, I think this was what 'the world' calls a nervous breakdown...to God it is called Him 'completely breaking' His to be like Him. I went to work on Monday and looked at the computer and didn't know what to do. I was asked to work with a Real Estate client, and again, didn't know what to do. Definitely not able to be the 'voice and face' of the company. The only thing I knew to do was grab 'what I knew' my One Year Bible, but again-it was foreign.
So-you can imagine-what does the 'world' do? Medicate! Gosh. They 'assumed' all of my visions were 'thoughts of grandeur, etc'-get it? Bi-polar. Me not understanding-did what they said and took the meds. Oh my heavens...my life was over.
Guess what-yup that was true. MY LIFE WAS OVER. It was created by God for His Glory and to fulfill His Purpose and Plan.
By May 2008, I began hanging out with 'the guy' again who then became my Husband. Most of the story you know, the part I've been too embarrassed to share is how little I knew with this 'new' me. Even in the kitchen-utensils were odd. Everyday life was new. At that point, in my time alone, I pleaded with God to save me...He keeping tellin me...He already did.
In the past couple months, I shared about my daily life...today I want to share about my 'true life of Amazing Grace.'
Since I've been re-married...my life has been under attack...but God has been there every step of the way. You might think I only believe in the One Year Bible, no. What I know for sure is if you want to stay in line with God, you must be reading 'some' kind of Bible everyday to experience this 'Amazing Grace!'
It's been there for you...no matter how old you are. If you're not receiving this, please hear my 'heart' in this it-it's right there..God's word...
The book about George W. Bush offered me so many answer's to me and 'why' this Bible. He didn't only read the Bible-it was a friend of his, Dr. Tony Evans-yup the amazing Pastor from Dallas who gave this to Him. GWB says as He quotes Woodrow Wilson, "sorry for the men who do not read the Bible every day as it is the one supreme source of revelation of the meaning of life.'
Like me, the book speaks alot of the 'facts' of Separation of Church and State and my Passion of the Bible being a part of public schools, actually part of 'everyday' life everywhere! The truest fact of which is Freedom of Religion. Not ONE Religion. In fact, I'm Non-denomination..believing some Faith(Jesus died and rose for me) and Freedom is what our Founding Father's intended and then most important it is 'IN GOD WE TRUST!'
The movie, Amazing Grace continues to speak to me in reference to just 'how' and 'when' is the right time to pursue the vision God has given me. I feel much like Wilberforce with amount if 'knocks' I know I will receive. AS well-as the song itself,I was lost and now found..!
This past weekend, I celebrated my 2 Year Wedding Anniversary with my Husband. It was Thursday night, I spent some really sweet 'time' with him that I felt this 'new grace' in ways I've never felt. Friday- yesterday were spent celebrating what God brought together with this Union... so many 'worldly expectations put to bed....understanding more than ever the 'peace' of Honoring God for His expectations! Beautifully enough..again loving God...the topic spoken about this weekend at my church-Gateway-Southlake-was about THIS very thing! Knowing and receiving God's amazing 'gift' to us....the gift of GRACE!!!
I pray you hear my 'heart' in this, I would love to hear yours! I pray for financial Blessings in the near future for me to be the vessel God wants me to be....as you know.... Trusting God for ALL!
'It's been an amazing couple days watching Amazing Grace while letting go of 'chains' didn't really know I needed too while reading the book, "God and George W. Bush a Spiritual Life." MANY questions about ME found in this movie and book....and funny enough Amazing Grace is one of His (GWB) favorite songs! Will post a Blog about this 'amazing' journey of true 'grace' we've been given! Guess which Bible he reads?'
July 25 at 3:17pm
My heavens, where do I start. It's like I've started and re-started this blog and it just wasn't the right 'time.'
God is so good and the 'timing' today to share is just as perfect as the continued 'Grace' I'm learning to receive.
I've shared about the transformation process God has been doing in me. Many have asked, 'What led you to this?'
Well-much like the movie 'Amazing Grace' and George W, when I look back to 2005, I didn't find God, He found me.
Many of you who've followed this blog know my past. Forgive me as I share parts again as I pray there might be 'new eyes to see' and 'ears to hear' and might be touched to see how much Mercy and Grace are there to be had-we just need to receive it!
January 1, 2005 began with no job(worked temp. @ $10 per hr),needed to take care of the DWI I got the past summer and the time was 'now' to go forward with the Divorce Petition I had filed the previous November which meant I would be moving out of my home and leaving all I knew, esp my Daughter's.
I've been a Christian for many years....however didn't really understand Grace, Faith and Love. I have chills as I share, I heard George W. Bush read the Bible in a year and was convicted. If he can do it, I could too. Started my Bible reading and didn't/couldn't find the time to read and next thing I knew 2/3 weeks passed and I was still in Genesis. I remember thinking if there was a reading plan to follow, that would work. Found my girls Precious Moments Bible and in the back was a 'reading plan.' Tried this, again, was still not disciplined to follow. One Saturday night, was at the bookstore of my 'then' church Fellowship Grapevine and the Bible that has changed my life found ME!
Began reading, feeling so overwhelmed.
Had a job opportunity offered to me....wasn't sure about it, however I felt this amazing pat on the back, "Trust in me." So- I took the job. It was funny, again I started out making $10 an hour. Next thing I knew, the DWI was done, probation started, and by mid March my Divorce was finalized. Gosh...now time to move. Much harder than I ever expected.
I began this 'Amazing Journey' of seeking the true 'Grace' Jesus died for. At this point, my Daughters were 16, 12, and 9. Today I see God's hand in this. At that time, I promise I was 'heart broken.'
I met many people during this time who are still very close friends who met me 'then' and see me 'now' which allows me to again Thank God for His mercy and 'Grace.'
2006-I left this position and went back to the 'world' of Real Estate with the Family Business. This also meant 'straight commission.' It was this year that the Deuteronomy 8 verse reached out to me. Honestly thought my 'tests' were done and life was moving 'up!'
No-not yet. Again, staying in the word...reading pretty much every day, God was transforming me. Breaking down 'Me' to be like 'Him.'
2007 started with financial Blessings from God. This allowed me to take my 1st Mission trip which was to Argentina of which I am Blessed to still be in contact with the Couple who were the hosts. (prayng now to re-visit!)
Well-here comes the part I haven't 'blogged' about because it was too painful as I didn't understand what was happening. I started having these 'Visions' about a non-profit using the One year Bible. They started small ang got big. I was working so hard on these things. As they came to me, I wrote/did everything I felt I was supposed to do. The odd part was, it seemed every Real Estate client I worked-fizzled out. (this meant zero income for me.) By November the vision was getting really exciting and life as well.(This is when I met my Husband as well as I was Baptized in the Holy Spirit.)
The hardest part was as I was 'standing firm' on 'Faith like a mustard seed' and trusting God for what he was doing in my life...my 'nest egg' was getting smaller and smaller....doing all I thought was right...still not understanding.
I began going to/thru some much needed Freedom counseling at my new church-Gateway, I was able to 're-visit' some times in my life that had held me in bondage and really speak to some "Generational Curses' form my Family line.
What I was completely un-prepared for was my 'new spirit' was so new that it was open to some really 'rough spiritual attacks.'
2008 started with me applying for Food stamps and Medicaid for my kids....humbling...
Gosh-I felt so vulnerable. It was like I felt many in my 'inner circle'saying, 'where is God...almost as if they were 'mocking' me.' I had been doing all I knew for income-applying for any job...and God clearly didn't want that for me. Quite possibly, He wanted me to see some of the life I might be Ministering too.
By March, my relationship with 'the guy' had dwindled(again this is my Husband)
It was in April the 'big' one hit me. I remember driving down the road with my 2 youngest kids and hearing very clear: 'What would you do if you had no one here on earth...no parents, kids, etc. just me to lean on?"
My parents basically created a job as New Business Dev. for me to 'get me back to work.'
The idea of 'this' was a dream job for me...somewhat like I was the 'face and voice' of the company.
It was mid April when something really 'odd' happened to me me. Friday night I couldn't sleep. I was overcome with fear...turned into Saturday and then Sunday. I didn't sleep all weekend and couldn't eat.
What was really weird, was I felt like 'everything I knew' had been zapped. Today, I think this was what 'the world' calls a nervous breakdown...to God it is called Him 'completely breaking' His to be like Him. I went to work on Monday and looked at the computer and didn't know what to do. I was asked to work with a Real Estate client, and again, didn't know what to do. Definitely not able to be the 'voice and face' of the company. The only thing I knew to do was grab 'what I knew' my One Year Bible, but again-it was foreign.
So-you can imagine-what does the 'world' do? Medicate! Gosh. They 'assumed' all of my visions were 'thoughts of grandeur, etc'-get it? Bi-polar. Me not understanding-did what they said and took the meds. Oh my heavens...my life was over.
Guess what-yup that was true. MY LIFE WAS OVER. It was created by God for His Glory and to fulfill His Purpose and Plan.
By May 2008, I began hanging out with 'the guy' again who then became my Husband. Most of the story you know, the part I've been too embarrassed to share is how little I knew with this 'new' me. Even in the kitchen-utensils were odd. Everyday life was new. At that point, in my time alone, I pleaded with God to save me...He keeping tellin me...He already did.
In the past couple months, I shared about my daily life...today I want to share about my 'true life of Amazing Grace.'
Since I've been re-married...my life has been under attack...but God has been there every step of the way. You might think I only believe in the One Year Bible, no. What I know for sure is if you want to stay in line with God, you must be reading 'some' kind of Bible everyday to experience this 'Amazing Grace!'
It's been there for you...no matter how old you are. If you're not receiving this, please hear my 'heart' in this it-it's right there..God's word...
The book about George W. Bush offered me so many answer's to me and 'why' this Bible. He didn't only read the Bible-it was a friend of his, Dr. Tony Evans-yup the amazing Pastor from Dallas who gave this to Him. GWB says as He quotes Woodrow Wilson, "sorry for the men who do not read the Bible every day as it is the one supreme source of revelation of the meaning of life.'
Like me, the book speaks alot of the 'facts' of Separation of Church and State and my Passion of the Bible being a part of public schools, actually part of 'everyday' life everywhere! The truest fact of which is Freedom of Religion. Not ONE Religion. In fact, I'm Non-denomination..believing some Faith(Jesus died and rose for me) and Freedom is what our Founding Father's intended and then most important it is 'IN GOD WE TRUST!'
The movie, Amazing Grace continues to speak to me in reference to just 'how' and 'when' is the right time to pursue the vision God has given me. I feel much like Wilberforce with amount if 'knocks' I know I will receive. AS well-as the song itself,I was lost and now found..!
This past weekend, I celebrated my 2 Year Wedding Anniversary with my Husband. It was Thursday night, I spent some really sweet 'time' with him that I felt this 'new grace' in ways I've never felt. Friday- yesterday were spent celebrating what God brought together with this Union... so many 'worldly expectations put to bed....understanding more than ever the 'peace' of Honoring God for His expectations! Beautifully enough..again loving God...the topic spoken about this weekend at my church-Gateway-Southlake-was about THIS very thing! Knowing and receiving God's amazing 'gift' to us....the gift of GRACE!!!
I pray you hear my 'heart' in this, I would love to hear yours! I pray for financial Blessings in the near future for me to be the vessel God wants me to be....as you know.... Trusting God for ALL!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
My Letter to President Ronald Reagan
Dear President Ronald Reagan,
Today, July 22, 2010, I finished the book written by Paul Kengor, “God and Ronald Reagan a Spiritual Life” and I wanted to write you to say, ‘Well done good and Faithful Servant!’
What an amazing Man of God you were and your legacy lives in many, including me. Your love of fulfilling God’s purpose and plan for your life was remarkable! As I believe you did not believe in coincidences, nor do I. Like you, the Bible is the book I live by with the One Year Bible as my daily devotional. With this knowledge, is there any coincidence that the book ended in the ‘Afterword’ of telling about your Death and Funeral. Your Pastor Reverend Michael Wenning read one of your favorites Biblical verses, 2 Chronicles 7:14-
Then if my people who are called by my name will
humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn
from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and
will forgive their sins and restore their land.
Again, not believing in coincidences of the timing of me being led to read this book, this verse is ‘today’ in the One Year Bible.
I must say, when you were President, I was graduating High School and am embarrassed to say, I had no real knowledge of what a great country we get to live in with Freedom being taken for granted-me at the top of the list. I had a relationship with God, but honestly no true understanding of what ‘freedom to believe’ really meant.
At that point, I thought I was going to become a Fleight Attendant until my career test said, ‘Funeral Home Embalmer.’ Honest. I answered the test with every bit of truth to who I am, and did not understand why and how I was supposed to talk and work with ‘dead’ people.
In 2006, a prophetic word was given to me by a trustworthy person. It said, I would use my influential persuasive ability with something I was passionate about in a Government position. I felt then as I do now, this would involve the One Year Bible. Since then, there have been many more 'words' given to me including 'You will change the world, and you have a 'very High Calling' on your life.
In 2007, God gave me some amazing visions using this Bible as the ‘source’ somewhat like a textbook of seeking your purpose and plan with your God given gifts to understand who and what you are created to do. I could see the Bible as a textbook in public schools, given to people bound by ‘inner chains’ and in the end those throughout the world reading, receiving, living the word of God in their everyday lives to experience the ultimate ‘gift of freedom’ Jesus died to give us.
Well, until today, I honestly did not have much clarity about how I could be used a vessel for God in any government position mostly because my relationship with God is number ONE. I understand more than ever my God given gift is I am a ‘true’ Chaplain. I love to seek those who are spiritually dead and help to restore them back to life! The transformation process God has been doing in my heart to wake in the morning to ask God how I can serve Him today- not me- has taken over. Still until today, not feeling completely ‘free’ to walk out in any work related area and give God the glory for all for everything I am and have, until today.
In closing, I Thank You again for your Faith and Trust in God’s will for your Life. For me, your legacy has brought new meaning to words you loved, I believe now more than ever:
“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may praise your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.”
Today, July 22, 2010, I finished the book written by Paul Kengor, “God and Ronald Reagan a Spiritual Life” and I wanted to write you to say, ‘Well done good and Faithful Servant!’
What an amazing Man of God you were and your legacy lives in many, including me. Your love of fulfilling God’s purpose and plan for your life was remarkable! As I believe you did not believe in coincidences, nor do I. Like you, the Bible is the book I live by with the One Year Bible as my daily devotional. With this knowledge, is there any coincidence that the book ended in the ‘Afterword’ of telling about your Death and Funeral. Your Pastor Reverend Michael Wenning read one of your favorites Biblical verses, 2 Chronicles 7:14-
Then if my people who are called by my name will
humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn
from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and
will forgive their sins and restore their land.
Again, not believing in coincidences of the timing of me being led to read this book, this verse is ‘today’ in the One Year Bible.
I must say, when you were President, I was graduating High School and am embarrassed to say, I had no real knowledge of what a great country we get to live in with Freedom being taken for granted-me at the top of the list. I had a relationship with God, but honestly no true understanding of what ‘freedom to believe’ really meant.
At that point, I thought I was going to become a Fleight Attendant until my career test said, ‘Funeral Home Embalmer.’ Honest. I answered the test with every bit of truth to who I am, and did not understand why and how I was supposed to talk and work with ‘dead’ people.
In 2006, a prophetic word was given to me by a trustworthy person. It said, I would use my influential persuasive ability with something I was passionate about in a Government position. I felt then as I do now, this would involve the One Year Bible. Since then, there have been many more 'words' given to me including 'You will change the world, and you have a 'very High Calling' on your life.
In 2007, God gave me some amazing visions using this Bible as the ‘source’ somewhat like a textbook of seeking your purpose and plan with your God given gifts to understand who and what you are created to do. I could see the Bible as a textbook in public schools, given to people bound by ‘inner chains’ and in the end those throughout the world reading, receiving, living the word of God in their everyday lives to experience the ultimate ‘gift of freedom’ Jesus died to give us.
Well, until today, I honestly did not have much clarity about how I could be used a vessel for God in any government position mostly because my relationship with God is number ONE. I understand more than ever my God given gift is I am a ‘true’ Chaplain. I love to seek those who are spiritually dead and help to restore them back to life! The transformation process God has been doing in my heart to wake in the morning to ask God how I can serve Him today- not me- has taken over. Still until today, not feeling completely ‘free’ to walk out in any work related area and give God the glory for all for everything I am and have, until today.
In closing, I Thank You again for your Faith and Trust in God’s will for your Life. For me, your legacy has brought new meaning to words you loved, I believe now more than ever:
“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may praise your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.”
Thursday, July 1, 2010
'The Courage to Encourage and the Courage to Ask for Encouragement!'
When I was 5, my Dad took me to visit a Kindergarten school to see if I would be interested in attending. 'I' made the decision 'I' didn't think it was needed. From there, 'I' did many things in elementary, middle and high school. I've worked many jobs, am the Mother of 6 children(Blended) and now getting the chance to be a Wife again.
They say we are born as a sinner. This much I know. They say in order to be 'saved,' we must ask Jesus into our Hearts-this I did with the help of a true friend when I was 12 whom I'm so honored to say we are still friends.
From there, it has taken me to the 'newest' lesson God has wanted to teach me which I learned this last week.
I mentioned in my last blog I would be taking the Real Estate Broker exam last Friday. On my heavens, it has been a LONG time since I've had to 'buckle' down and study! I started out last Monday...really having a hard time concentrating on this-really wanting to create, write etc. Blah!
I'm still not sure why I needed to know so many things on a test to do a job that requires more knowledge in Experience and less 'book knowledge.' Anyway. Tuesday came around and I was really struggling because the information was not sticking in my brain.
Many who know me, know my Strength and Faith in God is very deep rooted. And, many who know me, think of my Faith and the idea that God will make 'it' happen. However, I too have and had to do the work in order to maintain this!
Somewhere along the way, I missed something. As I've grown into this 'new' person completely putting ALL of my trust in God, I think I missed the fact that He has put many wonderful people in my path to be there for me to reach out and have the 'Courage to ask for Encouragement.'
So, I started by texting my Husband which I'm embarrassed to say was hard. He sent back the PERFECT text that could only come from Him. Next thing I knew, one of my girlfriends called to encourage me and let me know how my journey has helped her. Yup...God was doing His thing like He always does....His word says, "I will never leave you or forsake you."
Friday morning, I knew I wasn't prepared, but I had done all I could do. I sent a text to many asking for prayer for the test. Again-they 'assumed' I had the brains to pass, etc.
Calgon!!!!!!! The test was aweful. Not only did I not pass, I felt completely DEFEATED.
So~what's the only thing a 'girl' is to do-shop. I needed a pair of shoes for a wedding the next day and had seen a pair I wanted-just need the right 'encouragement' to buy them. YUP-this was it!
Funny enough, I mentioned to someone before the test Friday that 'I' wanted to pass the test mainly because 'I' was so tired of studying.
The lesson for now was-it is important to have the 'Courage to be Encouraged' just as important as it is to have the 'Courage to Encourage!'
See-with my passion for the Word of God, I missed that I too deserve to to be encouraged.
Well-it was a 'fitful' weekend for me knowing the days were counting down for me to get this test over with. It was the 26th and I needed it to be done by the 30th.
On Sunday, I scheduled to re-take THE test for Tuesday the 29th. This was the last straw. Nothing like some good pressure.
Monday, I 'buckled' down like no other praying for the ability to concentrate like no other. Didn't sleep much and went in with the confidence only God could give and much encouragement from MANY on Tuesday morning. Guess what? I PASSED!!!
I get to finally say, I did this with God and many!!!!
It is my prayer for you to know it's good to have the 'Courage to ask to be Encouraged!"
It is also my prayer for you to look around today and ask God to give you someone for you to have the "Courage to Encourage!"
The picture below is the Bouquet of Roses from my Husband congratulating me which many of you know is really an amazing Victory for US!
They say we are born as a sinner. This much I know. They say in order to be 'saved,' we must ask Jesus into our Hearts-this I did with the help of a true friend when I was 12 whom I'm so honored to say we are still friends.
From there, it has taken me to the 'newest' lesson God has wanted to teach me which I learned this last week.
I mentioned in my last blog I would be taking the Real Estate Broker exam last Friday. On my heavens, it has been a LONG time since I've had to 'buckle' down and study! I started out last Monday...really having a hard time concentrating on this-really wanting to create, write etc. Blah!
I'm still not sure why I needed to know so many things on a test to do a job that requires more knowledge in Experience and less 'book knowledge.' Anyway. Tuesday came around and I was really struggling because the information was not sticking in my brain.
Many who know me, know my Strength and Faith in God is very deep rooted. And, many who know me, think of my Faith and the idea that God will make 'it' happen. However, I too have and had to do the work in order to maintain this!
Somewhere along the way, I missed something. As I've grown into this 'new' person completely putting ALL of my trust in God, I think I missed the fact that He has put many wonderful people in my path to be there for me to reach out and have the 'Courage to ask for Encouragement.'
So, I started by texting my Husband which I'm embarrassed to say was hard. He sent back the PERFECT text that could only come from Him. Next thing I knew, one of my girlfriends called to encourage me and let me know how my journey has helped her. Yup...God was doing His thing like He always does....His word says, "I will never leave you or forsake you."
Friday morning, I knew I wasn't prepared, but I had done all I could do. I sent a text to many asking for prayer for the test. Again-they 'assumed' I had the brains to pass, etc.
Calgon!!!!!!! The test was aweful. Not only did I not pass, I felt completely DEFEATED.
So~what's the only thing a 'girl' is to do-shop. I needed a pair of shoes for a wedding the next day and had seen a pair I wanted-just need the right 'encouragement' to buy them. YUP-this was it!
Funny enough, I mentioned to someone before the test Friday that 'I' wanted to pass the test mainly because 'I' was so tired of studying.
The lesson for now was-it is important to have the 'Courage to be Encouraged' just as important as it is to have the 'Courage to Encourage!'
See-with my passion for the Word of God, I missed that I too deserve to to be encouraged.
Well-it was a 'fitful' weekend for me knowing the days were counting down for me to get this test over with. It was the 26th and I needed it to be done by the 30th.
On Sunday, I scheduled to re-take THE test for Tuesday the 29th. This was the last straw. Nothing like some good pressure.
Monday, I 'buckled' down like no other praying for the ability to concentrate like no other. Didn't sleep much and went in with the confidence only God could give and much encouragement from MANY on Tuesday morning. Guess what? I PASSED!!!
I get to finally say, I did this with God and many!!!!
It is my prayer for you to know it's good to have the 'Courage to ask to be Encouraged!"
It is also my prayer for you to look around today and ask God to give you someone for you to have the "Courage to Encourage!"
The picture below is the Bouquet of Roses from my Husband congratulating me which many of you know is really an amazing Victory for US!
Monday, June 21, 2010
'Driving into the Storm Straight on Trusting in Him!'
Amazing how quick things change in just a week!
Last Monday, my middle Daughter had an invitation to take her first 'unofficial' college visit! So~we headed out West...way west...Lubbock...Texas Tech bound!
Many of you know, I'm not a good driver...in fact, praying for the day I don't need to drive...anyways, headed out singing, "Jesus Take the Wheel!"
Got going...knowing God was in this...felt the continued 'peace that surpasses all' that I've been feeling with this 'new' ME God has been transforming!
Got to the last 2 hours of the drive and started noticing the dark clouds ahead and then the National Weather kept interrupting in on the radio with severe thunderstorm warnings that should hit between 3-9. Me, being the optimist just knew it would wait til we were arrived at our destination...nope.
It was really odd. It was like these big ugly orange/dark clouds were right in front of us...and all I knew to do was keep on going. Winds started moving my car towards the left...the 18 wheeler in front was swaying...yup-here we go-myself and my two youngest Daughters heading right for the storm. Amazing. I've never seen real 'storm chasers' til this day. There was the first, second and then the third. The winds started picking up and I started gripping my steering wheel harder. Called my husband to let him know what was going on...not sure why...but just 'in case.'
I knew I couldn't panic, so I kept focusing on the car in front of us with their hazard lights on. It was this moment that 'life' hit me.
Life is about 'driving into the storm straight on and completely Trusting in Him!' Wow. As you've read, there have been many storms I've faced, but not like this with just me and my girls in the middle of nowhere.
...Kept looking forward and knew the only thing I could do was reach out to God and pray with this new Faith and let Him drive us. Amazing. The middle Daughter said, "Mom, we can pull over now and I said no...we have to keep going thru-thinking 'this too shall pass!'
Ahhhhh....it did...we made it thru.
Thought I would shop around to get a good deal on a hotel, but found the first one that happened to be quite nice and said, I deserve this one! ~whew!
Checked in and then headed out to meet the Coach completely calling him the wrong name which let the girls know just how 'frazzled' their Mom really was.
It's been a week since this and I continue to reflect on this experience.
I have some really sweet "Praise Reports" to share about just how good and Faithful God is. HE WILL BE WITH YOU DURING YOUR STORM!!!
My oldest Daughter called last Thursday to tell me she would be getting a 'Full-Ride' this next year where she will be a Senior and VP of the Student Government at TLU and plans to pursue Law.(she just took her LSAT and is waiting on her score!)
Yesterday, the Middle Daughter 'verbally committed' to attend Texas Tech where she will start on the Woman's Soccer Team in 2012! The school, Coach, location is so perfect for her!
The Youngest Daughter was so impressed with the Texas Tech school, she plans on attending there as well to focus on her Mrs. Degree in 2015.
And then, for me-My Husband came back 'home' the day I posted my last blog. Our time apart was good and our time together has been 'Magical!' Blessed Assurance is taking Baby steps...and then this Friday I take the Real Estate Broker Exam in hopes to focus on the idea of a Faith Based Real Estate Company with using the One year Bible as the 'Training Guide' to 'Open the new door of your home for His Glory to shine through'
And yes...Trusting God for all!
Last Monday, my middle Daughter had an invitation to take her first 'unofficial' college visit! So~we headed out West...way west...Lubbock...Texas Tech bound!
Many of you know, I'm not a good driver...in fact, praying for the day I don't need to drive...anyways, headed out singing, "Jesus Take the Wheel!"
Got going...knowing God was in this...felt the continued 'peace that surpasses all' that I've been feeling with this 'new' ME God has been transforming!
Got to the last 2 hours of the drive and started noticing the dark clouds ahead and then the National Weather kept interrupting in on the radio with severe thunderstorm warnings that should hit between 3-9. Me, being the optimist just knew it would wait til we were arrived at our destination...nope.
It was really odd. It was like these big ugly orange/dark clouds were right in front of us...and all I knew to do was keep on going. Winds started moving my car towards the left...the 18 wheeler in front was swaying...yup-here we go-myself and my two youngest Daughters heading right for the storm. Amazing. I've never seen real 'storm chasers' til this day. There was the first, second and then the third. The winds started picking up and I started gripping my steering wheel harder. Called my husband to let him know what was going on...not sure why...but just 'in case.'
I knew I couldn't panic, so I kept focusing on the car in front of us with their hazard lights on. It was this moment that 'life' hit me.
Life is about 'driving into the storm straight on and completely Trusting in Him!' Wow. As you've read, there have been many storms I've faced, but not like this with just me and my girls in the middle of nowhere.
...Kept looking forward and knew the only thing I could do was reach out to God and pray with this new Faith and let Him drive us. Amazing. The middle Daughter said, "Mom, we can pull over now and I said no...we have to keep going thru-thinking 'this too shall pass!'
Ahhhhh....it did...we made it thru.
Thought I would shop around to get a good deal on a hotel, but found the first one that happened to be quite nice and said, I deserve this one! ~whew!
Checked in and then headed out to meet the Coach completely calling him the wrong name which let the girls know just how 'frazzled' their Mom really was.
It's been a week since this and I continue to reflect on this experience.
I have some really sweet "Praise Reports" to share about just how good and Faithful God is. HE WILL BE WITH YOU DURING YOUR STORM!!!
My oldest Daughter called last Thursday to tell me she would be getting a 'Full-Ride' this next year where she will be a Senior and VP of the Student Government at TLU and plans to pursue Law.(she just took her LSAT and is waiting on her score!)
Yesterday, the Middle Daughter 'verbally committed' to attend Texas Tech where she will start on the Woman's Soccer Team in 2012! The school, Coach, location is so perfect for her!
The Youngest Daughter was so impressed with the Texas Tech school, she plans on attending there as well to focus on her Mrs. Degree in 2015.
And then, for me-My Husband came back 'home' the day I posted my last blog. Our time apart was good and our time together has been 'Magical!' Blessed Assurance is taking Baby steps...and then this Friday I take the Real Estate Broker Exam in hopes to focus on the idea of a Faith Based Real Estate Company with using the One year Bible as the 'Training Guide' to 'Open the new door of your home for His Glory to shine through'
And yes...Trusting God for all!
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