On the Way to Where We're Going

I've mentioned before about the MUCH needed work God needed to do in me when I was faced with Divorce. As believer's, we know we're born into a world of sin. At a God appointed time, we confess our sins by giving up control of our life to God by asking Jesus into our Hearts.

My question/thought's as we travel our individual journey's is how many times do we forget 'on the way to where we're going' that it is only me/you in the end. Death is 100%. We are all going to die. Most important, it is only me/you on judgement day in front of God answereing the 'many' questions I can only imagine He has for me/you. (No kids, spouses, etc.)

Today, due to the circumstances of 'life', I'm really embarraseed to confess I've become quite vulnerable to the demands of 'life'. Today it 'hit me' really hard I have ALOT of questions to be asked and I am sad about the answer's I have to give. Today it 'hit me' as a Believer, I'm NOT to let demands and circumstances come before God no matter what. This is especially hard when you're a Wife, Mother, employed by your Parents~your #1 weakness is co-dependency and you 'think' their demands and circumstances will gain the much looked for love that many co-dependent(people pleasing) people are searching for. For us, the NEED to do whatever~whenever~no matter how hard it is and usually no matter what the cost is.

I mentioned before, I 'Re-Married' August 08. Can you imagine the demands and vulnerability of a Mom who has 3 of her own kids and Marries a man with 3 kids? Such a Co-dependent/people pleaser's 'dream!' Needless to say, it didn't take long for me to become completely exhausted! And let me remind you I work for my Parents! Wow.

Last September, I was led to have bunion surgery on both my feet. I knew God wanted me to surrender some things. I thought most of this had to do with my job. I gave up 75% of my job and put my trust in Him for His financial provisions to make the remaining 25% spread like only He could do. I 'blogged' before about me seeking God to learn to have 'fun!' Today-what 'hit me' was I haven't been obedient to things like taxes. I've been faithful to my tithe, however not to 'Ceasar.' I watch everyone else take care of their personal 'stuff,' but for some reason I didn't feel deserving of taking care of my own personal 'stuff'. I let their needs become more important than mine. Not good.

My prayer for myself and you is I/you know and understand God wants me/you to seek Him for ALL. He wants each of us to take care of our personal 'stuff.' I/you ARE deserving 'on the way to we're we're going.' I know it's hard when there are so many demands and circumstances in life....I really know. However, today what I know now more than ever that in the end~it is just me/you and God on that ever mentioned Judgement Day and I pray we can be filled with the answers that please Him...Trusting God for ALL!