A Mother's Love

On this Valentine's Eve, my heart is heavy as I recognize my TRUE Love ~ God, and then the love of my life, my Husband...and honestly I feel soooo led to dedicate this Valentine's Day to my 3 Daughters.

I mentioned before in my Deuteronomy 8 Story that when I divorced, I moved out and wanted to make sure my girls lives didn't change(as much as possible). This has not been easy. It's now been almost 5 years and the pain of them not living with me has not gotten any easier, nor does the love of a Mother's Heart ever change.

My oldest continues to 'wow' me as she is the Big Sister I could have only dreamed for. She is the 'Academic' one who is considered the 'Curve setter' at Texas Lutheran University as well as President of the Marketing Association and then serves on the Student Government Association. The other night, she called to tell me she was on her way to cook pasta with a friend and to bring me up to date on all of her 'stuff'. She mentioned she was receiving applications to NYU and Yale for Law School and at first, I had to ask her where is Yale? Then, as I recognized her happiness is all I care about, I went on to the important stuff like~ what kind of pasta was she cooking and more important-how late would she be out?

My middle daughter is a Junior in High School and is the 'Athletic' of the 3. I continue to be so impressed with her as I know how bad 'Peer Pressure' can be for a girl her age. She mentioned to me the other day how hard it is to go to school on Monday's because all the 'Popular people' do is brag about all the parties they went to over the weekend, etc. etc.... and she doesn't know what to say. I try to remind her of the many Blessings in store for her with her God given gifts in athletics as long as she 'Believes!'

The youngest of the 3 is my 'Socialite.' I am the youngest of 3 Girls and was also the socialite. So-it is quite obvious to many I really understand her position. Many 'think' she is my favorite because of this~however God know's they are each my Favorite! I feel like her life has been impacted the most because of my divorce. She continues to amaze me with her ability to adapt. The hardest thing for me is when she calls crying about something I can't help her with-esp. when it involves a fight with her middle sister. The cutest thing about her is she has become very accustomed to hanging out with new friends and is a wonderful Christian witness!

I knew it was the right decision to 'move-out' of the home when I divorced because I really felt God wanted to do some much needed work in me, however I can be completely honest today and say it is the hardest thing I ever imagined doin. I pray and continue to surrender these 3 girls to God... and God knows the biggest desire of my heart is for them to live with me again.

The reality of this is-the oldest won't ever need to live with me as she is in college and on her way to where God is taking her. The middle daughter is a Junior and will be leaving to go off to college in a year. And, the youngest...my oh my...who know's what amazing things God has in store for her!

So, I sit back~humbled~somewhat in tears~ Thanking God for these Beautiful, Sweet Girls and I Love them so much~so often from a distance, but NEVER letting go of the TRUTH and that is a Mother's Love never lessons~it only gets stronger! As you know.... Trusting God for All!