Monday, May 17th I took what I call the 'Walk' of My Life. In reality it really began 5 years ago as I've shared with learning to 'Live' again. and have done this with God's word in the One Year Bible to be completely 'transformed' from who I was to who I AM by taking the 'Walk' of living my life of being set 'free' and getting In-line with God's purpose and plan for my life.
On the 17th, things were 'heatin' here at he 'new place' with my Husband and I told him I needed to go for a walk. As I was heading out, I asked God where I was going? He said-'there!' 'There' being where it really got heated up, 5 years ago when it was time for me to 'let go' of ME and surrender to HIM which was the home I moved out from, leaving my family and everything I knew to become the real 'Me'.
Wow. I kept pleading with God, it's kind of far, I'm really not dressed for this and He said, Trust in me. I started out, gettin a whistle and a honk and thought, I can't do this. God said, keep goin. As I got closer to the home, walking the streets that had so many memories of walking my kids to school, playing tennis, bike rides, I started understanding the 'need' of the walk. It was as if I needed to walk back thru this to see how far God has taken me. When I came to my street, tears started running down my face. How in the world did I ever leave this, what in the world took me down the road to such darkness? And then...as I walked up to my home the current resident was there and I walked up, introduced myself and said, I was just 'walking' by.
When I got back to the 'new place, ' the next part of the finishing touches of this 'transformation' process had begun as my husband was not there, he had gone back to the 'old place' of what he knew.
Tuesday morning the 18th of May the One Year Bible reading was: John 10:10: 'The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy.' Yup. That's pretty much what was happening 5 years ago and was trying again today. After I finished my Bible reading, I was led to a book a wonderful Woman of God wrote and gave me called, 'Walking in Victory.' (A MUST FOR ALL to read and do as a Bible study...(www.GayeMoss.com)
Well-again, I tell you, the reason I'm so passionate about the One Year Bible is there just can't be so many coincidences(God's way of being anonymous)as this. I opened the book and Lesson One, Chapter One is Experiencing God's Abundant Life and the first verse to be read is:
"The thief comes only in order to steak kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows).' John 10:10.
I was able to read thru the Book while reading in the One Year Bible the book of John that reinforced-applied the word of God. (In my earlier blog-this is how I worked thru my Dad's heart attack and how I'm dealing with the current situation with my husband.)
My friend mentioned in the book she was needing some help dealing with her emotions and read the Bible thru praying about this. As I finished her book, I've been doing the same. Another very gifted person who is an amazing man of God is named Bob Hamp who is executive Pastor of Freedom at my church. He just released His book-'Think Differently-Live Differently!' Once again-get it-read it-apply it with the Word of God-amazing!
It wasn't his book that has brought me to what I consider some of the 'fine-tuning' during this 'walk,' as it was an article He wrote in a magazine of 'Becoming Yourself.' He highlights 3 main steps to the pathway to freedom: Surrender your perspective, surrender your will and finally surrender your soul (mind, will and emotions.) Again, knowing my One Year Bible reading has been in the book of John, with chills it references:
"Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God." John 3:19-21
What I know for sure, this 'Walk' has been an amazing transformation process! The pain of 'life' that hurts deep in my gut is gone. Finally. And I know 'life' is going to continue. What I have learned and again want to help you with, is no matter what you're going thru YOU can begin the 'Walk of Your Life' today with this One Year Bible or any (this one just made it so easy for me and I really believe it will be easy for you if you're in a dark place looking for some way out)....God's promises are true and He is there every step of the way....Trusting God for All!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
'What is Blessed Assurance Ministries?'
Many of you know Real Estate has been my 'day' job since the early 90's. Well, you might also know, during these past couple years, this is 'THE' industry that was first hit with the current economic 'issue's' and sorry to say, there was and has not been a Government bailout to help. Thanking God again for the ONE Year Bible-my textbook for strength again during a very difficult time.
For me, there were 2 choices-RUN....or seek God for His purpose and plan knowing full well, He's the one that led me to Real Estate in the first place.
In 2006, I began understanding my LOVE for Real Estate was 'more' than the 'Art of the Deal.' I honestly began loving the people I was helping to sell their home or purchase their new one. My favorite 'house-warming' gift began to be what I considered the only gift-a Bible with their name on it!
After my first Mission trip in 2007, God began 'stirring' something in my heart. A vision of helping people in their darkest moments 'see the light' somehow using the One Year Bible. It's like the 'pieces of the puzzle' of my life began to make sense. My love of the 'death process' and the knowledge I'm a born Chaplain began to make me smile.
I can't tell you how many times I've thought back to the career test I took in high school that said the 'perfect' job for me would be Funeral Home Embalmer at the time 'I thought' I would be the 'perfect' Flight Attendant for Southwest Airlines!
By the end of 2007, I understood 'some' of this, but not all.
April 2008, the ministry(Blessed Assurance) God had given me received Tax-exempt status from the IRS! I asked God to tell me the name to be used and I was obedient, however still not seeing the 'big picture.'
Since then, God has taken down a path today I know was for 'the good' of the Ministry. I have experienced some really tough 'Life' challenging moments where I know now was preparing me for what 'the ministry is.'
It was just 2 weeks ago while out with my Husband, he mentioned we need to go to church even though we're gonna be a few minutes late. We walked in just in time for one last song of the Praise and worship time....ONE last song that said IT so well...the ONLY song that could have brought me to my knee's during a time in 'Life' I was learning what TRUE love is and what we are ALL called to do:
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
Refrain:
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.
Perfect submission, perfect delight,
Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
Angels, descending, bring from above
Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
Last Tuesday, I felt led to finally open the bank account to accept donations for what I know now God is wanting me to do to be the vessel He has called me to be. While I was sitting in the lobby waiting, the Mission statement came that describes what I believe Blessed Assurance Ministries IS:
Blessed Assurance is a Ministry fulfilling the words of the song of 'telling my story' hoping to help you write yours, using the Word of God...all the day long!
I've attached a link to the title of this blog asking for donations to allow me to continue to 'plant the seed' of buying One Year Bible's to help you to begin writing your story.
I will share, the vision God gave me in 2007 was pretty big. Today, it's just a lil seed looking to grow into a great BIG TREE! If you think about the 'world' today-wow. So many people at the 'place' in life where they've hit the 'rock bottom' of darkness I know so well and I would love any and all support from you to help them to 'see the light!'
For me, there were 2 choices-RUN....or seek God for His purpose and plan knowing full well, He's the one that led me to Real Estate in the first place.
In 2006, I began understanding my LOVE for Real Estate was 'more' than the 'Art of the Deal.' I honestly began loving the people I was helping to sell their home or purchase their new one. My favorite 'house-warming' gift began to be what I considered the only gift-a Bible with their name on it!
After my first Mission trip in 2007, God began 'stirring' something in my heart. A vision of helping people in their darkest moments 'see the light' somehow using the One Year Bible. It's like the 'pieces of the puzzle' of my life began to make sense. My love of the 'death process' and the knowledge I'm a born Chaplain began to make me smile.
I can't tell you how many times I've thought back to the career test I took in high school that said the 'perfect' job for me would be Funeral Home Embalmer at the time 'I thought' I would be the 'perfect' Flight Attendant for Southwest Airlines!
By the end of 2007, I understood 'some' of this, but not all.
April 2008, the ministry(Blessed Assurance) God had given me received Tax-exempt status from the IRS! I asked God to tell me the name to be used and I was obedient, however still not seeing the 'big picture.'
Since then, God has taken down a path today I know was for 'the good' of the Ministry. I have experienced some really tough 'Life' challenging moments where I know now was preparing me for what 'the ministry is.'
It was just 2 weeks ago while out with my Husband, he mentioned we need to go to church even though we're gonna be a few minutes late. We walked in just in time for one last song of the Praise and worship time....ONE last song that said IT so well...the ONLY song that could have brought me to my knee's during a time in 'Life' I was learning what TRUE love is and what we are ALL called to do:
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
Refrain:
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.
Perfect submission, perfect delight,
Visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
Angels, descending, bring from above
Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
Last Tuesday, I felt led to finally open the bank account to accept donations for what I know now God is wanting me to do to be the vessel He has called me to be. While I was sitting in the lobby waiting, the Mission statement came that describes what I believe Blessed Assurance Ministries IS:
Blessed Assurance is a Ministry fulfilling the words of the song of 'telling my story' hoping to help you write yours, using the Word of God...all the day long!
I've attached a link to the title of this blog asking for donations to allow me to continue to 'plant the seed' of buying One Year Bible's to help you to begin writing your story.
I will share, the vision God gave me in 2007 was pretty big. Today, it's just a lil seed looking to grow into a great BIG TREE! If you think about the 'world' today-wow. So many people at the 'place' in life where they've hit the 'rock bottom' of darkness I know so well and I would love any and all support from you to help them to 'see the light!'
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
PLEASE Don't Wait to Make the 911 Call!
Revelation 3:20 says Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.
My Friends, Family and Fellow Amercians I come today begging of you pleading with you that you don't wait to make the 911 call!
Early last Friday night, my cell phone started blowing up with my 2 big sisters calling me. I tried to call back, got their voice mail and then listened to mine....the message said, "Hey..not sure if you've heard, but Dads' had a heart attack.'
There's kind of a golden rule in my Family, you don't call me until you know what's going on because I'm the 'emotional' one. YUP that's me!
I immediately called my middle Sister and completely loosing it said, "How bad is it????!!!' (Looked up and said 'Thank you God for what you are about to do.)
Right now..I must take a moment and say a quick prayer:
'Father God. I Thank you so much for your WORD and the knowledge it is TRUE! Your WORD says, you will not give us more than we can handle. I Thank you for my Family and Friends and know 'we CAN do all things thru Christ who strengthens us!'~AMEN!
Saturday morning I rounded up my girls and we headed to Lake Travis. On the way there, I felt something 'lift' in me and started grinning! Had the funniest thought that came to mind: 'Gee Dad, you don't have to have a heart attack to get us to come visit, really! Next time, just ask!"
So many wonderful moments already coming from this.
I've been able to see my 2 Sisters in a whole new way. My big sister is definitely the one to be named 'Executor' to their estate. She came in and showed such love and leadership as the Oldest Daughter. Very independent and amazing strength! My middle sister is somewhat like the 'care taker.' She just kept asking my Mom, 'What do you want to do, do you want me to go with you, and I will go to Physical Therapy with you. She has a new since of peace she is walking in and it shines thru her in ways I don't think she even knows! As for me, I'm learning the BIG ONE: God is LOVE...I must act in LOVE in ALL situations!
The most amazing moment so far is watching My Mother show how much she loves 'Her Man!'
Apparently, Dad started feeling some pain in his left shoulder about 2:00 in the afternoon while prepping the boat for the weekend. He kept on going thinking the pain would go away and finally after doing everything 'He' thought possible...now 3 HOURS LATER, he called my Mother and told her, 'He wasn't feeling too well." Still not making the 911 call. Bless her heart-no pun intended! She was at the grocery, left her cart in the aisle and made a run to save her Man! Got to the Lake house, immediately gave him some baby aspirin and together decided they needed to go to a clinic. They arrived, hooked Dad up to the EKG and said, 'You're having a heart attack...we need to get you to the hospital!' NOW the time came to make the 911 call! Good ole Dad, says he was looking at them in complete disbelief. My heavens, the ambulance came with the sirens going off and I can only imagine what He and Mom were thinking at this moment. It would definitely have to have been the 'ride of His life!'
Today Dad is good. We are all VERY grateful it wasn't His time to go!
To you my close Friends, please look at your lives and take inventory. PLEASE ask yourself if you're really being 'true' to who you are? Are you where you are supposed to be? Do you know the truth? How long is it before you make the '911' call?
My fellow Americans, WE ARE HEADED FOR THE WORST ECONOMIC SHUT DOWN IN HISTORY! Our Government is acting in ways no man should have to live thru. The good news is WE ALSO KNOW A WORLD REVIVAL IS COMING!
PLEASE don't wait to make YOUR 911 call! PLEASE 'let go' of all control of your money and power and resolve to the LOVE God intended...as it is written, 'In GOD WE TRUST!' As you know...Trusting God for All...and I will close with my favorite song:
Mine eyes have seen the glory
Of the coming of the Lord;
He is trampling out the vintage
Where the grapes of wrath are stor'd;
He hath loos'd the fateful lightning
Of His terrible swift sword:
His truth is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
I have seen Him in the watchfires
Of a hundred circling camps,
They have builded Him an altar
In the evening dews and damps;
I can read His righteous sentence
By the dim and flaring lamps:
His day is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
I have read a fiery gospel
Writ in burnished rows of steel:
"As ye deal with My contemners,
So with you My grace shall deal:"
Let the Hero born of woman
Crush the serpent with His heel,
Since God is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
He has sounded forth the trumpet
That shall never call retreat;
He is sifting out the hearts of men
Before His judgment seat.
Oh, be swift, my soul, to answer Him!
Be jubilant, my feet!
Our God is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
In the beauty of the lilies
Christ was born across the sea,
With a glory in His bosom
That transfigures you and me;
As He died to make men holy
Let us die to make men free,
While God is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
My Friends, Family and Fellow Amercians I come today begging of you pleading with you that you don't wait to make the 911 call!
Early last Friday night, my cell phone started blowing up with my 2 big sisters calling me. I tried to call back, got their voice mail and then listened to mine....the message said, "Hey..not sure if you've heard, but Dads' had a heart attack.'
There's kind of a golden rule in my Family, you don't call me until you know what's going on because I'm the 'emotional' one. YUP that's me!
I immediately called my middle Sister and completely loosing it said, "How bad is it????!!!' (Looked up and said 'Thank you God for what you are about to do.)
Right now..I must take a moment and say a quick prayer:
'Father God. I Thank you so much for your WORD and the knowledge it is TRUE! Your WORD says, you will not give us more than we can handle. I Thank you for my Family and Friends and know 'we CAN do all things thru Christ who strengthens us!'~AMEN!
Saturday morning I rounded up my girls and we headed to Lake Travis. On the way there, I felt something 'lift' in me and started grinning! Had the funniest thought that came to mind: 'Gee Dad, you don't have to have a heart attack to get us to come visit, really! Next time, just ask!"
So many wonderful moments already coming from this.
I've been able to see my 2 Sisters in a whole new way. My big sister is definitely the one to be named 'Executor' to their estate. She came in and showed such love and leadership as the Oldest Daughter. Very independent and amazing strength! My middle sister is somewhat like the 'care taker.' She just kept asking my Mom, 'What do you want to do, do you want me to go with you, and I will go to Physical Therapy with you. She has a new since of peace she is walking in and it shines thru her in ways I don't think she even knows! As for me, I'm learning the BIG ONE: God is LOVE...I must act in LOVE in ALL situations!
The most amazing moment so far is watching My Mother show how much she loves 'Her Man!'
Apparently, Dad started feeling some pain in his left shoulder about 2:00 in the afternoon while prepping the boat for the weekend. He kept on going thinking the pain would go away and finally after doing everything 'He' thought possible...now 3 HOURS LATER, he called my Mother and told her, 'He wasn't feeling too well." Still not making the 911 call. Bless her heart-no pun intended! She was at the grocery, left her cart in the aisle and made a run to save her Man! Got to the Lake house, immediately gave him some baby aspirin and together decided they needed to go to a clinic. They arrived, hooked Dad up to the EKG and said, 'You're having a heart attack...we need to get you to the hospital!' NOW the time came to make the 911 call! Good ole Dad, says he was looking at them in complete disbelief. My heavens, the ambulance came with the sirens going off and I can only imagine what He and Mom were thinking at this moment. It would definitely have to have been the 'ride of His life!'
Today Dad is good. We are all VERY grateful it wasn't His time to go!
To you my close Friends, please look at your lives and take inventory. PLEASE ask yourself if you're really being 'true' to who you are? Are you where you are supposed to be? Do you know the truth? How long is it before you make the '911' call?
My fellow Americans, WE ARE HEADED FOR THE WORST ECONOMIC SHUT DOWN IN HISTORY! Our Government is acting in ways no man should have to live thru. The good news is WE ALSO KNOW A WORLD REVIVAL IS COMING!
PLEASE don't wait to make YOUR 911 call! PLEASE 'let go' of all control of your money and power and resolve to the LOVE God intended...as it is written, 'In GOD WE TRUST!' As you know...Trusting God for All...and I will close with my favorite song:
Mine eyes have seen the glory
Of the coming of the Lord;
He is trampling out the vintage
Where the grapes of wrath are stor'd;
He hath loos'd the fateful lightning
Of His terrible swift sword:
His truth is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
I have seen Him in the watchfires
Of a hundred circling camps,
They have builded Him an altar
In the evening dews and damps;
I can read His righteous sentence
By the dim and flaring lamps:
His day is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
I have read a fiery gospel
Writ in burnished rows of steel:
"As ye deal with My contemners,
So with you My grace shall deal:"
Let the Hero born of woman
Crush the serpent with His heel,
Since God is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
He has sounded forth the trumpet
That shall never call retreat;
He is sifting out the hearts of men
Before His judgment seat.
Oh, be swift, my soul, to answer Him!
Be jubilant, my feet!
Our God is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
In the beauty of the lilies
Christ was born across the sea,
With a glory in His bosom
That transfigures you and me;
As He died to make men holy
Let us die to make men free,
While God is marching on.
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
Glory, glory, hallelujah!
His truth is marching on.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
'Two Becoming One-My Adam and Eve Story'
We live in a fallen world-that darn Adam and Eve. The good news is God created Eve (woman) so Adam(man) would not be alone. I'm ready to share about my Marriage and the amazing Man of God I get to call Husband. I'm just now realizing how strong He is, how much 'junk' He DOESN'T allow to affect Him and what a wonderful provider and Authority He is to be given the true title of Head of our HOME! (PLEASE know, this is really hard for me, but I feel God wants me to share in hopes you know we all suffer, but with Christ ALL things are possible!)
In a church Ministry event Tuesday night, a wonderful person had a word for me. 'YOU are a TREE by a river. The Lord wants to affirm you. You have deep roots. The enemy has attacked you BUT, YOU STOOD FIRM. You are in a 'New Season' of Fruitfulness. Do not judge your future on the basis of your past.
I've talked so much about my divorce and today I want to tell you how I feel about it. I don't agree with divorce and will/would do anything to help you if this is something you are considering. It is not good. You MUST step back and surrender ALL to allow God to do the work He intended when He brought you together with the person you are Married too. Had I been in the WORD during my time of need, I would not have divorced, etc. Hence the WORD will keep you from sin and sin will keep you from the Word!
August 1, 2008 I re-married. I met my Husband at church in a 2 day Freedom event called Kairos-'Eternity Steps Into Time.' We were taking a lunch break and he introduced himself to me. Afterwards, I thought 'My heavens how many tears has he witnessed-wow-as this was day 2 of a very deep process of letting go of all your 'junk' from the past and being set free. As you've read, I had lots! After the event, he was waiting for me in the lobby downstairs where He asked me out to go on a hike. My response was, 'I will go on a hike, however I've got a deal with God that I'm not here at church to date, I'm just here to worship Him!'
We sat in the church parking lot and declared if we ever dated again it would be God's way and all of our expectations of what that meant. For me, I honestly didn't think one moment more about the hike-it just felt good to tell someone my 'dating plan!'
Well- we didn't go on a hike, but we did hang out together. It became very apparent we were very compatible-esp. when it comes to our 'belief's. I started sending him the Daily One Year Bible verses for the day and he would look them up on Bible Gateway at work. We were beginning to be on the 'same' page in life reading, receiving and living God's word. His name alone is enough to give you chills and yes he looks like Jesus!
We began dating. Not long after, he wanted a commitment and I wasn't sure. A few days later, these words came to me: 'When I'm with you, I'm at home." The only time I have ever felt at home in the past was when I'm at church. I told him, I didn't understand this. Today, I do as 'Home is where your heart is!'
A few months later, He was Baptised in the Holy Spirit and I knew we would be taking a break. (Jesus going in the wilderness for 40 days to be tempted.) We did. We met to say we weren't a couple any longer and hugged good-bye.
There were really only a few days we didn't talk, text or email. We weren't a couple, but there was still 'something' stirring in our hearts.
We began meeting at volleyball games and hangin out here and there and met for church. Slowly, letting God take us where He wanted us. About a month later, he said I think God wants us to be Married, I'm just not sure how. (We both have 3 kids-6 Blended.)
June 15, after a morning of Ministering to Seniors together, I went my way/ He his with plans to meet back at church and then go to lunch. With my youngest and one of her friends with me we met at church and then went to lunch. I could see him 'fiddling' with something and wasn't sure what it was. He told me he wanted to go outside for a minute and talk. The talk was 'THE PROPOSAL!'
Understand, I am the Mother of 3 Daughter's who did NOT like me dating anyone, they are BIG Daddy's girls! The youngest was glad I was engaged because it would keep the guys from 'hittin' on me. The middle wouldn't speak to me.... and tearfully, the oldest said she just wanted me to be happy!
We Married in a very small setting with just Him and myself as we had tried to put together a ceremony and it seemed everyone schedules would not come together. We spent the weekend together and ended where we began at church giving Praise to God for the Union he brought together.
From there, if you understand Spiritual Warfare, the attacks spoke about in the 'Word' given to me Tuesday night began.
I moved into His home he owned before me with Him and His 3 kids. What I wasn't prepared for were so many 'Spiritual Attacks.' For example~I would be in the kitchen and do something completely stupid. I kept asking God, 'What is in the kitchen doing this to me?' Finally, I heard there was a spirit of His ex-girlfriend and ex-wife(no names pls) in there. It turned out they(the ex's) had lined the kitchen cabinets-duh!
The Master bedroom was next. On the walls next to the bed and the one above the bed, was all of His kid/family memorabilia. The teddy bear his ex gave him announcing they were gonna have a baby sat above me as I slept at night. And then, so many books, family albums of him with his family/ ex-girlfriends sat on the bookshelf on the wall in front of the bed. Oh my. I didn't know what to do. As I began to tell him, it was only natural he felt attacked. On my.
Not long after that, the next BIG attack came. His ex-Wife and her boyfriend decided they would move next door. He also brought his 2 kids as well. Honestly 'they thought' this would be good. They thought this would open up some space to allow room for my girls in our home. My husband describes his ex as: Good idea- wrong execution. And oh so true. They didn't divorce because they were good friends, so why would they become Neighbors?
Okay-so that was Feb. 09. It went from bad to awful. My husband, kept telling me he didn't like it either, but I continued to feel like I was supposed to 'suck it up' and deal with it. I tried. So many things began happening. Our middle son lived with us and He would wake up and go next door and get a 'dose' of his Mom and bring it back into our home.For me, I work out of the home and was 'caving' bad. Next, he and his sister, took my Favorite Howard Miller clock and 'bashed it' because they didn't like the chime. Understand, this was one of the very few things I allowed 'me' to buy after I divorced and would joke and say it would go to my grave with me as it was that special. From there, his ex and boyfriend would take vacations leaving the kids home-no problem with the 17/18 yr old, but, what about the sweet little 13 year old girl that needed someone? And then the pets. They had 4 dogs they would leave out. Remember, we live in the country. Well, you might know, on one of my walks, it was on my watch one of the dogs got stepped on by a horse as they would follow me and I knew this was gonna happen-just didn't think I would be alone. I didn't understand why they didn't put of a fence, so why did I think they would be responsible when one of the pets got hurt? Wow-again. They acted like they could care less when we called to say the puppy got hurt.(me holding it with it's leg hangin off was just too much for me!)
On Mother's Day we moved into an apartment to get away as well as get closer to my girls. I noted the 'new place' God had taken me. I can honestly say, I knew it was time to heal from the attacks, I just didn't think it would be without my Husband. We had decided to rent our house to his boys, and we would keep a room for all reasons. What I didn't think, is we/he would be using it so soon. But, after moving and realizing our Marriage had been under GREAT attack, we decided to have some space to heal.
Dear Lord-let the humiliation began. I began with the 'You need to be home with me...the Marriage is All or nothing talk....why would you want to be next door to your ex... why is this happening to me....the pride thing-what are people going to say... and Finally.....breathe....I Married 'til Death do us part' and whatever He/we need to heal~I must honor what God brought together that 2nd day of 'Eternity stepping into time!' True LOVE bears ALL!
It has been 11 days since my Husband and I have had our space and as I have 'PLUNGED' into the WORD like no other, am happy to say WE ARE HEALING. We've spent some really sweet time together during the days....time as if we were beginning again.....time like it is supposed to be....time spent as it is intended Two becoming One as God intended.
I can't tell you the ending... no one can.....I can tell you God's promises are true and today I stand FIRM on His Word...He brought us together for His Purpose and Plan and most important....Trusting God for ALL!
In a church Ministry event Tuesday night, a wonderful person had a word for me. 'YOU are a TREE by a river. The Lord wants to affirm you. You have deep roots. The enemy has attacked you BUT, YOU STOOD FIRM. You are in a 'New Season' of Fruitfulness. Do not judge your future on the basis of your past.
I've talked so much about my divorce and today I want to tell you how I feel about it. I don't agree with divorce and will/would do anything to help you if this is something you are considering. It is not good. You MUST step back and surrender ALL to allow God to do the work He intended when He brought you together with the person you are Married too. Had I been in the WORD during my time of need, I would not have divorced, etc. Hence the WORD will keep you from sin and sin will keep you from the Word!
August 1, 2008 I re-married. I met my Husband at church in a 2 day Freedom event called Kairos-'Eternity Steps Into Time.' We were taking a lunch break and he introduced himself to me. Afterwards, I thought 'My heavens how many tears has he witnessed-wow-as this was day 2 of a very deep process of letting go of all your 'junk' from the past and being set free. As you've read, I had lots! After the event, he was waiting for me in the lobby downstairs where He asked me out to go on a hike. My response was, 'I will go on a hike, however I've got a deal with God that I'm not here at church to date, I'm just here to worship Him!'
We sat in the church parking lot and declared if we ever dated again it would be God's way and all of our expectations of what that meant. For me, I honestly didn't think one moment more about the hike-it just felt good to tell someone my 'dating plan!'
Well- we didn't go on a hike, but we did hang out together. It became very apparent we were very compatible-esp. when it comes to our 'belief's. I started sending him the Daily One Year Bible verses for the day and he would look them up on Bible Gateway at work. We were beginning to be on the 'same' page in life reading, receiving and living God's word. His name alone is enough to give you chills and yes he looks like Jesus!
We began dating. Not long after, he wanted a commitment and I wasn't sure. A few days later, these words came to me: 'When I'm with you, I'm at home." The only time I have ever felt at home in the past was when I'm at church. I told him, I didn't understand this. Today, I do as 'Home is where your heart is!'
A few months later, He was Baptised in the Holy Spirit and I knew we would be taking a break. (Jesus going in the wilderness for 40 days to be tempted.) We did. We met to say we weren't a couple any longer and hugged good-bye.
There were really only a few days we didn't talk, text or email. We weren't a couple, but there was still 'something' stirring in our hearts.
We began meeting at volleyball games and hangin out here and there and met for church. Slowly, letting God take us where He wanted us. About a month later, he said I think God wants us to be Married, I'm just not sure how. (We both have 3 kids-6 Blended.)
June 15, after a morning of Ministering to Seniors together, I went my way/ He his with plans to meet back at church and then go to lunch. With my youngest and one of her friends with me we met at church and then went to lunch. I could see him 'fiddling' with something and wasn't sure what it was. He told me he wanted to go outside for a minute and talk. The talk was 'THE PROPOSAL!'
Understand, I am the Mother of 3 Daughter's who did NOT like me dating anyone, they are BIG Daddy's girls! The youngest was glad I was engaged because it would keep the guys from 'hittin' on me. The middle wouldn't speak to me.... and tearfully, the oldest said she just wanted me to be happy!
We Married in a very small setting with just Him and myself as we had tried to put together a ceremony and it seemed everyone schedules would not come together. We spent the weekend together and ended where we began at church giving Praise to God for the Union he brought together.
From there, if you understand Spiritual Warfare, the attacks spoke about in the 'Word' given to me Tuesday night began.
I moved into His home he owned before me with Him and His 3 kids. What I wasn't prepared for were so many 'Spiritual Attacks.' For example~I would be in the kitchen and do something completely stupid. I kept asking God, 'What is in the kitchen doing this to me?' Finally, I heard there was a spirit of His ex-girlfriend and ex-wife(no names pls) in there. It turned out they(the ex's) had lined the kitchen cabinets-duh!
The Master bedroom was next. On the walls next to the bed and the one above the bed, was all of His kid/family memorabilia. The teddy bear his ex gave him announcing they were gonna have a baby sat above me as I slept at night. And then, so many books, family albums of him with his family/ ex-girlfriends sat on the bookshelf on the wall in front of the bed. Oh my. I didn't know what to do. As I began to tell him, it was only natural he felt attacked. On my.
Not long after that, the next BIG attack came. His ex-Wife and her boyfriend decided they would move next door. He also brought his 2 kids as well. Honestly 'they thought' this would be good. They thought this would open up some space to allow room for my girls in our home. My husband describes his ex as: Good idea- wrong execution. And oh so true. They didn't divorce because they were good friends, so why would they become Neighbors?
Okay-so that was Feb. 09. It went from bad to awful. My husband, kept telling me he didn't like it either, but I continued to feel like I was supposed to 'suck it up' and deal with it. I tried. So many things began happening. Our middle son lived with us and He would wake up and go next door and get a 'dose' of his Mom and bring it back into our home.For me, I work out of the home and was 'caving' bad. Next, he and his sister, took my Favorite Howard Miller clock and 'bashed it' because they didn't like the chime. Understand, this was one of the very few things I allowed 'me' to buy after I divorced and would joke and say it would go to my grave with me as it was that special. From there, his ex and boyfriend would take vacations leaving the kids home-no problem with the 17/18 yr old, but, what about the sweet little 13 year old girl that needed someone? And then the pets. They had 4 dogs they would leave out. Remember, we live in the country. Well, you might know, on one of my walks, it was on my watch one of the dogs got stepped on by a horse as they would follow me and I knew this was gonna happen-just didn't think I would be alone. I didn't understand why they didn't put of a fence, so why did I think they would be responsible when one of the pets got hurt? Wow-again. They acted like they could care less when we called to say the puppy got hurt.(me holding it with it's leg hangin off was just too much for me!)
On Mother's Day we moved into an apartment to get away as well as get closer to my girls. I noted the 'new place' God had taken me. I can honestly say, I knew it was time to heal from the attacks, I just didn't think it would be without my Husband. We had decided to rent our house to his boys, and we would keep a room for all reasons. What I didn't think, is we/he would be using it so soon. But, after moving and realizing our Marriage had been under GREAT attack, we decided to have some space to heal.
Dear Lord-let the humiliation began. I began with the 'You need to be home with me...the Marriage is All or nothing talk....why would you want to be next door to your ex... why is this happening to me....the pride thing-what are people going to say... and Finally.....breathe....I Married 'til Death do us part' and whatever He/we need to heal~I must honor what God brought together that 2nd day of 'Eternity stepping into time!' True LOVE bears ALL!
It has been 11 days since my Husband and I have had our space and as I have 'PLUNGED' into the WORD like no other, am happy to say WE ARE HEALING. We've spent some really sweet time together during the days....time as if we were beginning again.....time like it is supposed to be....time spent as it is intended Two becoming One as God intended.
I can't tell you the ending... no one can.....I can tell you God's promises are true and today I stand FIRM on His Word...He brought us together for His Purpose and Plan and most important....Trusting God for ALL!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Happy Mother's Day to Me in My 'New Place'~ Proverbs 31
I am extremely humbled and in complete 'awe' of God today more than ever by the true knowledge HE is in control! I promise. His timing is so more perfect than I could ever imagine~just 'Believe!'
Today, the day after Mother's Day I get to share a couple of the many Blessings I know God has in store for me. His much needed work in me is paying off! I am forever grateful we serve a God of grace and for giving me a 'Second Chance.' Today, I am sitting in a 'new place'~no pun intended with an amazing amount of 'peace that surpasses all understanding!'
It has been a while since I posted a blog as 'life' has been ever so challenging with my character being tested in ways I never could have imagined this past month. Somewhat like a 'fine tuning' to make sure I understood these past 5 years. Oh my-do I ever! It is NOT natural for a Mother to be without her children, home, etc. Today, however it is well with my soul!
I 'have waited' for so long to feel the peace that comes with being a Wife and Mother! So many years have passed ~ 21 to be precise. It's like I had a child, came home from the hospital, started to clean, and get ready for work the next week. It went from there to the next child and then finally the last. I never knew how to sit back and relish in the idea of being a Wife and Mom. I started work at the age of 16 and it was noticed very early on I had wisdom beyond my years. I was quickly promoted to Assistant Manager. Working was what I knew I was really good at, it is what came natural to me so this was what I did. I enjoy cooking and cleaning 'every now and then,' but blah-everyday seems so unimportant!
I've spoken a little before about my divorce(I wrote and handled without attorney's) where I gave my ex custody of my 3 Daughter's. I can not tell you how much persecution I have taken over the last 5 years because of this. It has been awful! I will tell you again, I knew it was what I needed to do and today I know for sure! It was like I have felt God's hand on my shoulder this whole time saying, 'Trust in me!' And~I have-thanks to His word thru the One Year Bible! Many of you know-this is why I have such passion for this Bible as it was/is the ONE and ONLY source that was there/is there EVERY step of the way...a couple good times, soooo many tough times. I could/can open up to THE day and find some sort of peace with what I was going thru which has given me the strength on this amazing journey of reading, receiving, living my life according to the purpose and plan God created in me. Again, it has been the hardest time of my life....today~extremely worth it!
This 'new place' has been extremely prayed for. This 'new place' could not have happened had God not led me to my church in 2006 where I met my Husband. This 'new place' could not have happened had my Husband not mentioned in January it was time for me to get closer to My Daughter's. This 'new place' could not have happened-I promise-if it weren't for God and His WORD I began seeking in 2005.
And so I will close with sobs~not tears...I've come to this 'new place' as a God fearing Wife and Mother with my Daughter's home with me just as they are supposed to be....Trusting God for ALL!
Proverbs 31~A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies."
"Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value." Her husband trusts her management of their resources. Her industriousness adds to the family income.
"She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life." This woman does not do right only when it is convenient and profitable. Her actions are not based on how she is treated by others or by what others think. Her character is steady. She is reliable and dependable.
"She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands." This woman enjoys working so much that she plans ahead for what she needs in order to accomplish her responsibilities.
"She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar." The trait not to settle for the mediocre is portrayed by a woman who goes the extra mile for quality items.
"She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls." Though the woman described here has servants to take care of many of the household duties, she sets the pace. She understands that good managers have a responsibility to take care of those under their authority. That is one of her top priorities.
"She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard." Every woman doesn’t have to go into real estate and horticulture — the principle here is that this woman uses her mind. She does not act on a whim, but logically analyzes a situation before making a decision. Her goals are not only short term — she envisions the long-range benefits of her decisions.
"She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks." We get a picture of a woman who vigorously goes about her duties. She keeps herself healthy and strong by proper health practices — good diet, adequate rest and exercise. Many people depend on her.
"She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night." She knows that her merchandise is good and takes pride in doing a good job. Night or day, no one worries that her responsibilities are not taken care of.
"In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers." The example she sets is one of skill and industriousness. Whether this woman would be a computer programmer, a concert pianist, a mother, or all three, she develops her talents and hones her skills through education and diligent application.
"She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy." Although it’s good to donate to needy causes, this means far more than writing a check. This woman shows personal concern. She visits the sick, comforts the lonely and depressed, and delivers food to those in need.
"When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet." Providing clothing for the family is one of her responsibilities. She takes this seriously, and plans ahead. She does not practice crisis management.
"She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple." This woman has high standards and dresses properly for the occasion.
"Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land." This man does not have to spend half his time trying to straighten out problems at home, and his success in the social world comes partly from her support, just as her success comes partly from his support. The original woman of Proverbs 31 couldn’t phone her husband for his opinion on matters. She made many of the day-to-day decisions about their property and goods. He trusted her to manage the estate efficiently.
"She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes." This woman runs a business from her home. Her efforts and industry add to the family income.
"Strength and honor are her clothing; she shall rejoice in time to come" (NKJV). Not only does this woman benefit each day from her wise and diligent actions, long-term lifetime benefits and rewards lie in store for her.
"She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." This woman is well read and has the facts. She knows what she is talking about. Whether about her job, her personal values or her opinion on world events, she is able to express herself intelligently, tactfully and diplomatically. People come to her for good advice.
"She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness." She is an organized, energetic person who carries out her responsibilities.
"Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her." This woman is not a doormat, slavishly trying to appease and please her family, no matter how unreasonable their demands. She is honored in her home. Here we gain an insight into the character of her husband as well. He teaches their children to respect here and the virtues she personifies.
"Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all." High praise for this extraordinary woman — a role model for women of all time.
"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Here is the key to this woman’s effectiveness. Her priorities are determined by God’s will, not her own. She is concerned about what God thinks, rather than with what other people think. Physical beauty and clever conversation are admirable qualities. But if a woman’s beauty and charm are the extent of her virtues, what happens when time and the trials of life take their toll? This woman does not depend on beauty and charm for her success. She recognizes her need for God.
"Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate." This woman is actively doing, not merely talking. She does not boast about her plans for the future or her successes of the past. They are obvious.
Today, the day after Mother's Day I get to share a couple of the many Blessings I know God has in store for me. His much needed work in me is paying off! I am forever grateful we serve a God of grace and for giving me a 'Second Chance.' Today, I am sitting in a 'new place'~no pun intended with an amazing amount of 'peace that surpasses all understanding!'
It has been a while since I posted a blog as 'life' has been ever so challenging with my character being tested in ways I never could have imagined this past month. Somewhat like a 'fine tuning' to make sure I understood these past 5 years. Oh my-do I ever! It is NOT natural for a Mother to be without her children, home, etc. Today, however it is well with my soul!
I 'have waited' for so long to feel the peace that comes with being a Wife and Mother! So many years have passed ~ 21 to be precise. It's like I had a child, came home from the hospital, started to clean, and get ready for work the next week. It went from there to the next child and then finally the last. I never knew how to sit back and relish in the idea of being a Wife and Mom. I started work at the age of 16 and it was noticed very early on I had wisdom beyond my years. I was quickly promoted to Assistant Manager. Working was what I knew I was really good at, it is what came natural to me so this was what I did. I enjoy cooking and cleaning 'every now and then,' but blah-everyday seems so unimportant!
I've spoken a little before about my divorce(I wrote and handled without attorney's) where I gave my ex custody of my 3 Daughter's. I can not tell you how much persecution I have taken over the last 5 years because of this. It has been awful! I will tell you again, I knew it was what I needed to do and today I know for sure! It was like I have felt God's hand on my shoulder this whole time saying, 'Trust in me!' And~I have-thanks to His word thru the One Year Bible! Many of you know-this is why I have such passion for this Bible as it was/is the ONE and ONLY source that was there/is there EVERY step of the way...a couple good times, soooo many tough times. I could/can open up to THE day and find some sort of peace with what I was going thru which has given me the strength on this amazing journey of reading, receiving, living my life according to the purpose and plan God created in me. Again, it has been the hardest time of my life....today~extremely worth it!
This 'new place' has been extremely prayed for. This 'new place' could not have happened had God not led me to my church in 2006 where I met my Husband. This 'new place' could not have happened had my Husband not mentioned in January it was time for me to get closer to My Daughter's. This 'new place' could not have happened-I promise-if it weren't for God and His WORD I began seeking in 2005.
And so I will close with sobs~not tears...I've come to this 'new place' as a God fearing Wife and Mother with my Daughter's home with me just as they are supposed to be....Trusting God for ALL!
Proverbs 31~A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies."
"Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value." Her husband trusts her management of their resources. Her industriousness adds to the family income.
"She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life." This woman does not do right only when it is convenient and profitable. Her actions are not based on how she is treated by others or by what others think. Her character is steady. She is reliable and dependable.
"She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands." This woman enjoys working so much that she plans ahead for what she needs in order to accomplish her responsibilities.
"She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar." The trait not to settle for the mediocre is portrayed by a woman who goes the extra mile for quality items.
"She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls." Though the woman described here has servants to take care of many of the household duties, she sets the pace. She understands that good managers have a responsibility to take care of those under their authority. That is one of her top priorities.
"She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard." Every woman doesn’t have to go into real estate and horticulture — the principle here is that this woman uses her mind. She does not act on a whim, but logically analyzes a situation before making a decision. Her goals are not only short term — she envisions the long-range benefits of her decisions.
"She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks." We get a picture of a woman who vigorously goes about her duties. She keeps herself healthy and strong by proper health practices — good diet, adequate rest and exercise. Many people depend on her.
"She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night." She knows that her merchandise is good and takes pride in doing a good job. Night or day, no one worries that her responsibilities are not taken care of.
"In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers." The example she sets is one of skill and industriousness. Whether this woman would be a computer programmer, a concert pianist, a mother, or all three, she develops her talents and hones her skills through education and diligent application.
"She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy." Although it’s good to donate to needy causes, this means far more than writing a check. This woman shows personal concern. She visits the sick, comforts the lonely and depressed, and delivers food to those in need.
"When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet." Providing clothing for the family is one of her responsibilities. She takes this seriously, and plans ahead. She does not practice crisis management.
"She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple." This woman has high standards and dresses properly for the occasion.
"Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land." This man does not have to spend half his time trying to straighten out problems at home, and his success in the social world comes partly from her support, just as her success comes partly from his support. The original woman of Proverbs 31 couldn’t phone her husband for his opinion on matters. She made many of the day-to-day decisions about their property and goods. He trusted her to manage the estate efficiently.
"She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes." This woman runs a business from her home. Her efforts and industry add to the family income.
"Strength and honor are her clothing; she shall rejoice in time to come" (NKJV). Not only does this woman benefit each day from her wise and diligent actions, long-term lifetime benefits and rewards lie in store for her.
"She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." This woman is well read and has the facts. She knows what she is talking about. Whether about her job, her personal values or her opinion on world events, she is able to express herself intelligently, tactfully and diplomatically. People come to her for good advice.
"She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness." She is an organized, energetic person who carries out her responsibilities.
"Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her." This woman is not a doormat, slavishly trying to appease and please her family, no matter how unreasonable their demands. She is honored in her home. Here we gain an insight into the character of her husband as well. He teaches their children to respect here and the virtues she personifies.
"Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all." High praise for this extraordinary woman — a role model for women of all time.
"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Here is the key to this woman’s effectiveness. Her priorities are determined by God’s will, not her own. She is concerned about what God thinks, rather than with what other people think. Physical beauty and clever conversation are admirable qualities. But if a woman’s beauty and charm are the extent of her virtues, what happens when time and the trials of life take their toll? This woman does not depend on beauty and charm for her success. She recognizes her need for God.
"Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate." This woman is actively doing, not merely talking. She does not boast about her plans for the future or her successes of the past. They are obvious.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Spring Brings a 'New Season' to Many
Spring is here.
Change is here.
Tearfully, I share~for me personally, the last 5 years have been 5 of the longest years, 5 of the hardest years of personal growth and 5 of the the BEST years of coming to know God as my provider and with Him ALL things are possible!
Again with tears, I will share it was 5 years ago that God allowed me to divorce and gave me the opportunity to seek Him with all that I am. It was at this time, I heard George W. Bush read the Bible from start to finish every year. I had tried many times to read the Bible (all the way thru) however, never got past Genesis. After hearing about Bush, I was led to get the One Year Bible. What an amazing 'tool' this Bible has been during a time 'many' knew was a 'make it or break it' time for me. It has 15 minute daily readings of the Old Testament, New Testament, Psalm and Proverbs. I started reading March of 2005. In the beginning, there were days I read and yes~days I didn't. I would feel guilty~ so I would read the days I missed. One day, I felt God tell me, yesterday was just that, begin with TODAY because it is just that~Today!
In my Testimony, I share, how MANY days in the Bible would speak of things that were happening in my life~yes, on that VERY day of what I read that morning.
In my Testimony, I've shared, it was a 'duh' moment when I read Deuteronomy 8(2005). A couple days later, it began stirring in me that I was close to being 40.....
My Testimony completely 'involves' this One Year Bible as most of the days in the Bible were the days God was showing me how I was living my life according to His WORD!
As tears are flowing down my face, Deuteronomy 8 is coming soon. With such 'sweetness,' I will share God has given me 40 years of 'tests' and is now Blessing me as He is moving me to a land flowing with milk and honey. I am beginning my 'New Season' with a new home for my daughter's to be with me as well as 'new doors' are beginning to open for me to Glorify God with the Passion he created in me that is bigger than me, but not bigger than Him.
It is this Bible that has become my ROCK. It is this Bible that has given me the strength TODAY to be able to share the MANY Blessings I am receiving. It is with THIS Bible I know more than ever my God given gifts~my passion! I think many who know me (or those who don't) think I'm 'sellin' this Bible as if I wrote it or something silly. NO. So many in 'the' church know the Religion(the History) of the Bible. As I'm finding out more and more, sad to say, not many 'in the church' are reading, receiving, and living the Bible.
It is my prayer that you recognize my 'Passion' as you are reading. It is my 'true passion' to help those of you who are lost. Or, help you if you honestly don't know 'how' to read, receive, and live the WORD of GOD as your strength and comfort in your every time of need.
I pray for you as you begin your 'New Season'.....Trusting God for ALL!
Change is here.
Tearfully, I share~for me personally, the last 5 years have been 5 of the longest years, 5 of the hardest years of personal growth and 5 of the the BEST years of coming to know God as my provider and with Him ALL things are possible!
Again with tears, I will share it was 5 years ago that God allowed me to divorce and gave me the opportunity to seek Him with all that I am. It was at this time, I heard George W. Bush read the Bible from start to finish every year. I had tried many times to read the Bible (all the way thru) however, never got past Genesis. After hearing about Bush, I was led to get the One Year Bible. What an amazing 'tool' this Bible has been during a time 'many' knew was a 'make it or break it' time for me. It has 15 minute daily readings of the Old Testament, New Testament, Psalm and Proverbs. I started reading March of 2005. In the beginning, there were days I read and yes~days I didn't. I would feel guilty~ so I would read the days I missed. One day, I felt God tell me, yesterday was just that, begin with TODAY because it is just that~Today!
In my Testimony, I share, how MANY days in the Bible would speak of things that were happening in my life~yes, on that VERY day of what I read that morning.
In my Testimony, I've shared, it was a 'duh' moment when I read Deuteronomy 8(2005). A couple days later, it began stirring in me that I was close to being 40.....
My Testimony completely 'involves' this One Year Bible as most of the days in the Bible were the days God was showing me how I was living my life according to His WORD!
As tears are flowing down my face, Deuteronomy 8 is coming soon. With such 'sweetness,' I will share God has given me 40 years of 'tests' and is now Blessing me as He is moving me to a land flowing with milk and honey. I am beginning my 'New Season' with a new home for my daughter's to be with me as well as 'new doors' are beginning to open for me to Glorify God with the Passion he created in me that is bigger than me, but not bigger than Him.
It is this Bible that has become my ROCK. It is this Bible that has given me the strength TODAY to be able to share the MANY Blessings I am receiving. It is with THIS Bible I know more than ever my God given gifts~my passion! I think many who know me (or those who don't) think I'm 'sellin' this Bible as if I wrote it or something silly. NO. So many in 'the' church know the Religion(the History) of the Bible. As I'm finding out more and more, sad to say, not many 'in the church' are reading, receiving, and living the Bible.
It is my prayer that you recognize my 'Passion' as you are reading. It is my 'true passion' to help those of you who are lost. Or, help you if you honestly don't know 'how' to read, receive, and live the WORD of GOD as your strength and comfort in your every time of need.
I pray for you as you begin your 'New Season'.....Trusting God for ALL!
Saturday, March 6, 2010
The 'High Calling' on My Life!
Amazing~just writing 2010 in my personal journal is a 'wow' to me. It seems like yesterday I was writing 2006,07,08,09 and again-it's March 6, 2010-where has all the time gone?
I'm in a 10 week study called 'In His Presence and Secrets of the Secret Place' with the complete feeling God is showing His unconditional love for me in ways I honestly never knew.
I was led to get the movie Ice Castles of which I keep watching the movie~listening to the song with these lyrics OVER and OVER with tears streaming down my cheeks as the 'words' are exactly how I feel today:
Please don't let this feeling end
It's ev'rything I am
Ev'rything I want to be
I can see what's mine now
Finding out what's true
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
And now I can take the time
I can see my life
As it comes up shining now
Reaching out to touch you
I can feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
And now I do believe
That even in the storm we'll find some light
Knowing you're beside me I'm allright
Please don't let this feelings end
It might not come again
And I want to remember
How it feels to know you
How I feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
Please don't let this feelings end
It's ev'rything I am
Ev'rything I want to be
I can see what's mine now
Finding out what's true
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
As I was reading, feeling the 'Presence of God,' I felt the 'tug' to pray for complete discernment of the 'High Calling' God has on my life. Is the time drawing near to pursue the things he has been 'stirring' in my heart of which I've had some wonderful confirmation from a couple of Ladies who have an amazing prophetic gift:
~is it time to pursue the word given to me in Oct. 06~Propensity-I would be used in an influential/motivating way with 'something' I am passionate about today in a Government position(I believe this involves the One Year Bible)
1 Cor. 12?
~it is time to pursue the word given to me last Nov 09~ I have a 'very' High Calling with a writer's heart that will give peace to people? (My blog or the vision of the Ministry-Blessed Assurance-God gave me in 2007)
Habakkuk 3:19 and Habakkuk 2:2-3
~is it time to pursue the Faith Based Real Estate company my Husband has named Palace Properties which would 'open the door to Your New Home to allow His Glory to Shine thru'?
~the last word I received was just 2/15/2010 and really felt like it was bringing everything 'home'~you will change the world, you are walking in Kingdom Authority, God's grace is flowing thru you, you have everything you need, God is opening New doors and Your life is an open book!
For me~I feel God's presence and love for me with the ability to go into the 'Secret Place' in ways I have never experienced. I don't want this feeling to end. I am more prepared than ever today to answer the 'High Calling' he has on my life when he says the time is NOW. Not to worry. I don't think I'm 'Going Rogue' as one of my favorite persons is 'called' to be going, however I will share today, I am in complete 'awe' of her Faithfulness when the 'world' has been completely ugly to her.....Trusting God For ALL!
I'm in a 10 week study called 'In His Presence and Secrets of the Secret Place' with the complete feeling God is showing His unconditional love for me in ways I honestly never knew.
I was led to get the movie Ice Castles of which I keep watching the movie~listening to the song with these lyrics OVER and OVER with tears streaming down my cheeks as the 'words' are exactly how I feel today:
Please don't let this feeling end
It's ev'rything I am
Ev'rything I want to be
I can see what's mine now
Finding out what's true
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
And now I can take the time
I can see my life
As it comes up shining now
Reaching out to touch you
I can feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
And now I do believe
That even in the storm we'll find some light
Knowing you're beside me I'm allright
Please don't let this feelings end
It might not come again
And I want to remember
How it feels to know you
How I feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
Please don't let this feelings end
It's ev'rything I am
Ev'rything I want to be
I can see what's mine now
Finding out what's true
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
As I was reading, feeling the 'Presence of God,' I felt the 'tug' to pray for complete discernment of the 'High Calling' God has on my life. Is the time drawing near to pursue the things he has been 'stirring' in my heart of which I've had some wonderful confirmation from a couple of Ladies who have an amazing prophetic gift:
~is it time to pursue the word given to me in Oct. 06~Propensity-I would be used in an influential/motivating way with 'something' I am passionate about today in a Government position(I believe this involves the One Year Bible)
1 Cor. 12?
~it is time to pursue the word given to me last Nov 09~ I have a 'very' High Calling with a writer's heart that will give peace to people? (My blog or the vision of the Ministry-Blessed Assurance-God gave me in 2007)
Habakkuk 3:19 and Habakkuk 2:2-3
~is it time to pursue the Faith Based Real Estate company my Husband has named Palace Properties which would 'open the door to Your New Home to allow His Glory to Shine thru'?
~the last word I received was just 2/15/2010 and really felt like it was bringing everything 'home'~you will change the world, you are walking in Kingdom Authority, God's grace is flowing thru you, you have everything you need, God is opening New doors and Your life is an open book!
For me~I feel God's presence and love for me with the ability to go into the 'Secret Place' in ways I have never experienced. I don't want this feeling to end. I am more prepared than ever today to answer the 'High Calling' he has on my life when he says the time is NOW. Not to worry. I don't think I'm 'Going Rogue' as one of my favorite persons is 'called' to be going, however I will share today, I am in complete 'awe' of her Faithfulness when the 'world' has been completely ugly to her.....Trusting God For ALL!
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